Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
They sat that time. There was no striding about the room and hammering
of fists upon the table; rather a statement of fact, an icy exchange of
view. There was cut and thrust and cut again, and to her sore, secret
triumph a Justin awake at last, revealing strength, subtlety, decision,
justifying her unconsciously in every estranging phrase. But human
nature turned from such triumph.
She began again, weakly, sparing herself.
A miracle happened. She talked to him and he understood. He was kind. He
was fine. He forgave her. He laughed at her and said she mattered more
to him than a million birds’ eggs. And so they talked things out,
friends still, watching their good future rise amid those scattered,
foolish shells.
She began again and broke off, and began again and yet again.
She was still defying and defending and accusing and convincing him when
she reached the Priory’s open door, and, noiseless and unseen, slipped
up the stairs and along the panelled corridor to Justin’s room.
It was empty. He had asked her to meet him there at noon and it was
barely eleven o’clock. She had plenty of time.
She began her invariable little tour of inspection. He had left his
slippers as usual, toe to heel, in the middle of the floor: and the
ash-tray stank. She knocked it out against the window-sill and the wind
caught the ashes and dusted them back in her face. She had to trim
herself in the fire-place tiles—there was no looking-glass—before she
put back the tray and ranged the pipes in the rack and shook up the
squashed cushions of Justin’s chair—all this with a grim little smile.
She loved his hopeless ways.
But the table was neat, set out with that extreme care which is the
effect of a hobby on the untidiest of men. The books of reference were
stacked in two piles, one for him and one for her. He had paste and
photographs and scissors, and on the floor beside his chair an empty
drawer and a roll of cotton-wool. She had pen and ink, and his
beautifully bound private catalogue with the thick, lined paper and
blank interleaves for illustrations. Between them was the cardboard box
with the eggs they had not as yet classified and put away.
She thought——He’s enjoyed himself getting things ready!...
She drew the box towards her and stirred her hand round among the eggs;
then, lifting a handful, poured them idly from one palm to the other.
They rattled faintly like a woman’s high heels tapping along the
pavement.
She weighed them up and down. They were as light—as light as love....
Deliberately she let them shower through her fingers on to the floor.
But the carpet was thick and they took no harm.
Then, as if in spite of herself, she put out her foot and crushed them
where they lay.
She stood a moment, slurring her shoe to and fro, mechanically, to free
it from the crumbs of shell, and then turned to the cabinet between the
window and the door. That came next.... If you began a job, you must
finish it....
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