Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
She was always, in secret, fantastically ambitious, but her R.A. was one
cobweb with her Helen of Troyship (you should have seen Laura going
straight to headquarters—Olympus—and talking out the whole wretched
business with Zeus) or with the regency she undertook after delivering
up Elizabeth (in chains) to Mary Queen of Scots, reinstated and regal
and happily converted to Protestantism entirely through Laura’s
indefatigable personal exertions. For Laura, to Aunt Adela’s edified
relief, was whole-heartedly Anglican, in spite of having to learn
collects. She did not explain, if she knew it, that church was a
perpetual joy because it had three stained-glass windows with crimson
figures, black crimson like the darkest carnations in the big border, or
Gran’papa’s port, a crimson to make a small girl squirm with
inexplicable pleasure: And because she could sit there and plan out the
frescoes she would one day, when she was grown-up and an R.A., paint all
over the white-washed walls and up into the barred ceiling, being
conveyed thither nightly by the Archangel Raphael, who used to paint
pictures too, in Rome, before he was made a seraph, and so would
naturally be interested. The congregation, of course, were to be kept in
ignorance of the artist and a weekly increasing amazement until it was
finished. All but Justin. She would simply have to tell Justin....
That characteristic thought would be realized in characteristic fashion.
She was always dying to talk to him, and there was never any time; for
Justin even when not enclouded in a silence that might not be broken, a
silence which always made Laura, quite unnecessarily, feel rebuked, must
still be considered, at any rate in his twenties, to have enjoyed life
most in monologue. So Laura, obedient to the latest addition to her
Codex Justinianus, “Never worry him to talk,” evolved a system of
imaginary conversations which more or less satisfied her. She invented a
Justin of her own, a Justin identical in speech and manner and
appearance, a Justin who accompanied her wherever she went, into whose
sympathetic ear she poured, with a sort of passionate vivacity, every
thought and wish and fear and marvel of her developing mind.
It was curious to catch her unawares, to see her trotting down a garden
path, obviously absorbed in a discussion that required nods and laughter
and expressive hands, and little quick, questioning, upward glances,
while she endeavoured in vain to keep step with the long stride of an
Invisible.
Intercourse with this Invisible who to Laura was one with—was, indeed,
the real Justin, was so satisfying that when he arrived in the flesh for
his holidays, she was able to be satisfactory in her turn, to exist
demurely as no more than a domestic pet, with a trick of loosening his
tongue for him and the still more stimulating habit of listening in
intelligent admiration while it wagged.
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