She glanced eagerly at the doctor, in the obvious hope that his
cleverness, which she believed to be unlimited and profound, would
in a flash divine all the strange secret from this exposition of her
disjointed recollection. With each word she spoke, however, the doctor
became more and more convinced that Valentine had only been cruelly
amusing himself with her, or weaving for her benefit some intricate
web of vain madness. And Cuckoo, noticing this now, and recollecting the
momentary clearness of comprehension which had seized her at one point in
Valentine's wild sermon to her, was mad with herself for not being able
to seize again that current of inspiration, almost mad with the doctor
for not unravelling the mystery. This excess of feeling finally drowned
and swept away as a corpse the memory of the gospel of influence.
"I can't remember no more," she said stolidly. "There was ever such a lot
about--about some one as was good and didn't want to be good any more,
and so it was driven away--I don't know. P'rhaps he was only gamin' me."
She stared moodily at her feet, which she had stuck out from under her
dress. The doctor said nothing, but at her last speech his face had lit
up with a sort of excitement. For had she not described in those few
ill-chosen words the very mental position of the former Valentine? A
saint at first with his will, a saint at last against his will--and now
a saint no more. That was, perhaps, the key to the whole matter. A good
man prays to be no longer good. His prayer is granted. His grievous
desire is fulfilled. And then he may pray forever in vain to be as he
once was. Yet the change in Valentine was more even than this, more
than the gliding from white purity to black sin. There was something.
As Cuckoo and the doctor sat in silence, she staring vacantly and empty
of thought, being now utterly and chaotically puzzled, he thinking
deeply, the door bell rang. In a moment Mrs. Brigg appeared, went to
Cuckoo and muttered in her ear:
"Mr. Haddison wants to come in. I told him you was busy."
"Oh," said Cuckoo, "I say--wait," and then to the doctor, "It's him. It's
Julian."
"Let him in," the doctor said quickly.
To see Cuckoo and Julian together might tell him much.
Julian came in, stumbling rather heavily at the entrance of the room.
CHAPTER VI
CLEAR WEATHER
"Damn that mat!" he exclaimed. "I say, Cuckoo, who the--?" The question
faded on his lips as he saw Doctor Levillier, on whom he gazed with a
vacant surprise that, added to the unsteadiness of his movement upon
them, spoke his condition very plainly.
"You, doctor! Well, I'm damned! What are you here for?"
"To see Miss Bright," the doctor said, coolly.
He had pushed forward a chair quickly with his foot. Julian collapsed in
it by the table. Beads of the fog lay all over his long greatcoat and
upon his hat, which he had not yet taken off. His face was flushed and
dull.
"It's an infernal evening," he said. "You doctoring Cuckoo, eh?"
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