"What the devil's come over Cuckoo?" so ran his thought with a schoolboy
gait. That something had come over her he recognized. She was no longer
the girl he had stared at in Piccadilly, the creature he had pitied in
the twilight hour of their first friendly interview. Nor was she the
woman whose soul he had injured by his cruel whim, the woman who had
beaten him with reproaches, and made him for an instant almost ashamed
of his lusts. All these humanities perhaps slept, or woke, in her still.
Yet it was not they which heavily concerned him on his way to the Marble
Arch. There is a vitality about power of whatever kind that makes itself
instantly felt, even when it is not understood, even when it is neither
beloved nor appreciated. Julian was confused by his dull and sudden
recognition of power in Cuckoo. No longer did it flash upon him, a
mystery of flame in her eyes, moving him to the awe and the constraint
that a man may feel at sight of an unearthly thing, a phantom, or a
vision of the night. (He had looked for the flame in her eyes, and he
had not found it.) But it glowed upon him more steadily, with a warmth of
humanity, of something inherent, rooted, not detached, and merely for the
moment and as if by chance prisoned in some particular place, from which
at a breath it might escape. It drew him to Cuckoo, and at the same time
it slightly repelled him, the latter--though Julian did not know it--by
the sharp abruptness of its novelty. For the doctor had lit a blaze of
strength in the girl by a word. Julian's eyes were dazzled by the blaze.
Custom might teach them to face it more calmly. At present he could look
at the stars with greater ease. Indeed, as he walked, he did look at
them, and thought of the eyes of Cuckoo, and then of the eyes of all
women, and of their strange intensities of suggestion and of realization,
of their language of the devil and of the clouds, of their kindling
vigours. But the eyes of Cuckoo were no longer as the eyes of any other
woman. Julian glanced at a girl who watched him from the corner of the
street. He knew that Cuckoo looked each night at men as that girl looked
at him. He knew it, yet he felt that he did not believe it. For to him
she was dressed already in the fillet of some priestess, in the robes
of one tending some strange and unnamed altar. She woke in him a little
of the uneasy fear and uneasy attraction that a creature whom a man feels
to be greater than himself often wakes in him. That evening, while Julian
sat with her, he had been seized with curious conflicting desires to
fall before her or to strike her, to draw her close or to fend her off
from him, all dull, too, and vague as in heaviness of dreaming. Those
feelings, vague in the house, were scarcely clearer in the cold and in
the open spaces of the night, and Julian was conscious of a sense of
irritation, of anger against himself. He felt as if he were an oaf, a
lout. Was it, could it be, Cuckoo who had made him feel so? After all,
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