around these facts which he had to accept and to deal with. A touch of
humanity is worth all the unhuman romance in the world. Humanity lay at
the doctor's gate, sore distressed, sinking to something that was beyond
distress. So, putting his fancies resolutely behind him, Doctor Levillier
resolved to fight through that frail weapon, the lady of the feathers,
the battle of Julian's will against the will--which he now fully and
once for all recognized as malign--of the man he must still call
Valentine. Valentine had said to Julian, at the Savoy, "If it came to a
battle--Cuckoo Bright's will against mine!" The doctor had not heard
those words. Yet, under the stars on the doorstep of Cuckoo's dwelling
he, too, had spoken to the girl of a fight. Thus he had poured a great
ardour into her heart. The three souls, Cuckoo's, Doctor Levillier's,
Valentine's, were thus set in battle array. They understood what they
faced, or at least that they faced warfare. Only Julian did not
understand--yet. He was besotted by the spell of the one he called friend
laid upon him, and by the vices in which he had been taught to wallow.
His brain was clouded and his eyes were dim, as the brains and eyes of
the _malades imaginaires_ who carry on the scheme of sin and sorrow in
the world, and prolong by their deeds the long travail of their race.
Julian did not understand. For now he seldom thought sincerely. Sincere
thoughts and the incessant and violent acts of passion do not often dwell
together.
The progress of Julian towards degradation had now become so rapid that
his many acquaintances talked of him openly as of one who had practically
"gone under." Not that he had ever done any of those few things at which
society, whose door is generally ajar, with Mrs. Grundy's large ear glued
to the keyhole, resolutely shuts the door. He had not forged, or stolen a
watch, or killed anybody, or married a grocer's widow, or anything of
that kind. But he had thrown his life to the pleasures of the body, and
made no secret of the fact. And the pleasures of the body, like eager
rats, had gnawed away his power of self-control until he could resist
nothing, no wish of the moment, no desire born illegitimately of passing
excitement or the prompting of wine. So he committed many follies, and
his follies had loud voices. They shrieked and shouted. And society heard
their cries, held the door a little more ajar, and listened with that
passion of attention which virtue accords to vice. But society, having
heard a good deal, shook its head over Julian. He had acquired such a
taste for low company that he ought to have been born a peer. Certainly,
he had money. That made his errors chink rather pleasantly, and filled
the bosoms of many mothers with an expansive charity towards him. Still,
the general opinion was that he was sinking very low. In fact, the legend
of Julian's shame was now written on his face in such legible and vital
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