characters that the most short-sighted eyes could not fail to read it.
The eager beauty of untarnished youth had faded into the dull, and often
sulky, languors of the utterly indulged body. Julian was often exhausted
and passing through those leaden-footed dreams that fitfully entrance
the vicious,--those dreams that are colourless and sombre, that press
upon all the faculties, and yet have no real meaning, that stifle all
intentions, and put an end, for the moment, to all active desires. People
talk of the vicious as "living," but half their time they are curiously
dead, for their sins blunt their energies and lull them into a condition
that resembles rather paralysis than slumber.
Since the night on which he had supped with Valentine at the Savoy,
Julian had given himself up to the company and influence of his friend
more than ever, and London, which had once nicknamed Valentine the Saint
of Victoria Street, began to dub him with quite another name. For it
gradually became apparent to those who only knew the two young men
slightly that Valentine exerted an extraordinarily powerful influence
over Julian, and that the influence was imperatively evil. At first
many were deceived by the clear beauty of Valentine's face, but that was
beginning to fade. A thin line, pencilled here and there with a fairylike
delicacy, a slight puffiness beneath the blue eyes, a looseness of the
cheeks, a droop of the lips, all very demure, as it were, and furtive,
shed alteration upon his fair beauty. He himself noticed it, as he looked
in a mirror one night, and silently cursed the inevitable effect which
mind produces upon matter. No man's face can forever remain an entirely
deceptive mask. The saintly expression of Valentine's was rapidly
becoming a thing of the past. He wondered whether Julian noticed it.
But Julian was too much preoccupied with his own energies of dreary
action and lacerating fatigues of subsequent thought, or it would be
truer to say moodiness, to notice anything. He was self-centred, as are
all sinners, immersed in his own downfall, like a man in an ocean. He
was unconscious that he was the subject of battle, that four wills were
to contend for his soul's sake. Four wills, yet one expressed itself in
no outward form. It was in exile, till the day of its redemption should
dawn.
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