I remember my school-day speculations over an old “Chemistry” I used
to study as a text-book, which informed me that a substance called
Caloric exists in all bodies. In some it exists in a latent state;
it is there, but it affects neither the senses nor the thermometer.
Certain causes develop it, when it raises the mercury and warms
the hands. I remember the awe and wonder with which, even then, I
reflected on the vast amount of blind, deaf, and dumb comfort which
Nature had thus stowed away. How mysterious it seemed to me that poor
families every winter should be shivering, freezing, and catching
cold, when Nature had all this latent caloric locked up in her
store-closet,—when it was all around them, in everything they touched
and handled!
In the spiritual world there is an exact analogy to this. There is a
great life-giving, warming power called Love, which exists in human
hearts, dumb and unseen, but which has no real life, no warming
power, till set free by expression.
Did you ever, in a raw, chilly day just before a snowstorm, sit at
work in a room that was judiciously warmed by an exact thermometer?
You do not freeze, but you shiver; your fingers do not become numb
with cold, but you have all the while an uneasy craving for more
positive warmth. You look at the empty grate, walk mechanically
towards it, and, suddenly awaking, shiver to see that there is
nothing there. You long for a shawl or a cloak; you draw yourself
within yourself; you consult the thermometer, and are vexed to find
that there is nothing there to be complained of,—it is standing most
provokingly at the exact temperature that all the good books and good
doctors pronounce to be the proper thing,—the golden mean of health;
and yet perversely you shiver, and feel as if the face of an open
fire would be to you as the smile of an angel.
Such a life-long chill, such an habitual shiver, is the lot of many
natures, which are not warm, when all ordinary rules tell them they
ought to be warm,—whose life is cold and barren and meagre,—which
never see the blaze of an open fire.
* * * * *
[Sidenote: Regret.]
The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and
deeds left undone. “She never knew how I loved her.” “He never knew
what he was to me.” “I always meant to make more of our friendship.”
“I never knew what he was to me till he was gone.” Such words are the
poisoned arrows which cruel Death shoots backward at us from the
door of the sepulchre.
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