Against an uncertainty, who can brace the soul? We put all our
forces of faith and prayer against it, and it goes down just as a
buoy sinks in the water, and the next moment it is up again. The
soul fatigues itself with efforts which come and go in waves; and
when with laborious care it has adjusted all things in the light of
hope, back flows the tide and sweeps all away. In such struggles life
spends itself fast; an inward wound does not carry one deathward
more surely than this worst wound of the soul. God has made us so
mercifully that there is no _certainty_, however dreadful, to which
life-forces do not in time adjust themselves; but to uncertainty
there is no possible adjustment.
* * * * *
[Sidenote: Candace’s theology.]
“’Cause, as we’s got to live in dis yer world, it’s quite clar de
Lord must ha’ fixed it so we _can_; an’ ef tings was as some folks
suppose, why, we couldn’t live, and dar wouldn’t be no sense in
anyting dat goes on.”
* * * * *
[Sidenote: Death in life.]
So we go, dear reader,—so long as we have a body and a soul. For
worlds must mingle,—the great and the little, the solemn and the
trivial, wreathing in and out, like the grotesque carvings on a
gothic shrine; only, did we know it rightly, nothing is trivial,
since the human soul, with its awful shadow, makes all things sacred.
Have not ribbons, cast-off flowers, soiled bits of gauze, trivial,
trashy fragments of millinery, sometimes had an awful meaning, a
deadly power, when they belonged to one who should wear them no more,
and whose beautiful form, frail and crushed as they, is a hidden
and vanished thing for all time? For so sacred and individual is a
human being, that, of all the million-peopled earth, no one form ever
restores another. The mould of each mortal type is broken at the
grave; and never, never, though you look through all the faces on
earth, shall the exact form you mourn ever meet your eyes again! You
are living your daily life among trifles that one death-stroke may
make relics. One false step, one luckless accident, an obstacle on
the track of a train, the tangling of a cord in shifting a sail, and
the penknife, the pen, the papers, the trivial articles of dress and
clothing, which to-day you toss idly and jestingly from hand to hand,
may become dread memorials of that awful tragedy whose deep abyss
ever underlies our common life.
* * * * *
[Sidenote: Memory.]
For one flower laid on the shrine which we keep in our hearts for the
dead is worth more than any gift to our living selves.
* * * * *
[Sidenote: Control of the thoughts.]
“How could you help it, _mignonne_? Can you stop your thinking?”
Mary said, after a moment’s blush,—“I can _try_!”
* * * * *
[Sidenote: Minor modulations.]
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