Eva had entreated her father to remain at the Hague during all this
terrible time, and Sir Archibald had consented, fearing for his
daughter's health. Her natural sweet equanimity had given way to a
fitful nervousness, which tormented her with hallucinations, visions of
thunder and of blood. So they had settled in the Van Stolk Park, and
all through Frank's imprisonment she had been able to see him from time
to time, coming home more exhausted from each visit, in despair over his
melancholy, however she might try to encourage him with hopes for the
future, later on, when he should be free. She herself could hope, nay,
lived only on hope; controlling her excitability under the yoke of
patience, and of her confidence in something brighter which might come
into her life, by-and-by, when Frank was free. A new life! Oh, for a new
life! and her spirits danced at the thought--and new happiness! Great
God! some happiness! She did not herself understand how she could still
hope, since she had known so much of life and of men, and since she had
lived through that fearful experience; but she would not think of it,
and in the distant future she saw everything fair and good. Even her
hallucinations did not destroy her hopefulness; though dreading them,
she regarded them as a recurring malady of the brain, which would
presently depart of itself. She could even smile as she sat dreaming in
the pale light of a starlit summer evening, the calendar in her hand,
on which she scratched through each day as it died, with a gold
pencil-case which she had bought on purpose and used for nothing else,
wearing it in a bracelet;--struck it out, with a glad, firm stroke, as
bringing her nearer to the blissful future. And she would even let the
days pass without erasing them severally, that she might have the joy at
the end of a week of making six or seven strokes, one after another, in
a luxury of anticipation.
II.
And now, long as they had been, the days had all stolen by--all, one
after another, beyond recall. The past was more and more the past, and
would for ever remain so; it would never come back to them, she thought,
never haunt them more with hideous memories. She grew calmer; her
nervousness diminished, and something like peace came upon her in her
passionate longing for the happy future; for she was going to be happy
with Frank.
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