“He has finished it,” the Signor announced in a wondering whisper. A
little buzz rose, filled the air for a moment and then sank into silence
again. Mrs. Lazarus was without her orange because she had to wear
mittens now, and that made peeling the thing difficult. “I'm sure,” she
said, in a voice like that of a very excited cricket, “that Mr. Westcott
will feel better after he's had something to eat. _I_ always do.”
This remark left conversation at a standstill. The rain drove against
the panes, the mud rose ever higher against the walls, and dinner was
announced. Mrs. Brockett made her remarks to each member of the company
in turn as usual. To Peter she said:
“I hear that you have finished your book, Mr. Westcott. We shall all
watch eagerly for its appearance, I'm sure.”
He felt his excitement slipping away from him as the moments passed.
Suddenly he was tired. Instead of elation there was wonder, doubt. What
if, after all, the book should be very bad? During all these years in
London he had thought of it, during all these years he had known that it
was going to succeed. What, if now he should discover suddenly that it
was bad?... Could he endure it? The people of his book seemed now
to stand very far away from him--they were unreal--he could remember
scenes, things that they had said and done, absurd, ignorant things.
He began to feel panic. Why should he imagine that he was able to write?
Of course it was all crude, worthless stuff. He looked at the dingy
white pillars and heavy green curtains with a kind of despair ... of
course it was all bad. He had been hypnotised by the thing for the time
being. Then he caught Norah Monogue's eyes and smiled. He would show it
to her, and she would tell him what it was worth.
Poor Mrs. Tressiter's baby had died last week and now, suddenly, she
burst out crying and had to leave the room. There was a little twitter
of sympathy. How good they all were to one another, these people,
stupid and odd perhaps in some ways, but so brave for themselves and
so generous to one another. It was no mean gathering of souls that Mrs.
Brockett's dingy gas illuminated.
Every now and again the heavy curtains blew forward in the wind and
the gas flared. There was no conversation, and the wind could be heard
driving the rain past the windows.
III
Peter, that evening, took the manuscript of “Reuben Hallard” into
Miss Monogue's room. Since her mother died Norah Monogue had had a bed
sitting-room to herself. The bed was hidden by a high screen, the wall
paper was a dark green, and low bookshelves, painted white, ran round
the room. There were no pictures (she always said that until she could
have good ones she wouldn't have any at all). There were some brown pots
and vases on the shelves and a writing-table with a typewriter by the
window.
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