When Peter came in, Norah Monogue was sitting in a low chair over a
rather miserable fire; a little pool of light above her head came from
two candles on the mantelpiece--otherwise the room was in darkness.
“Shall I turn on the gas?” she said, when she saw who it was.
“No, leave it as it is, I like it.” He sat down in a chair near her and
put a pile of manuscript on the floor beside him. “I've brought it for
you to read,” he said, “I'm frightened about it. I suddenly think it
is the most rotten thing that ever was written.” He had become very
intimate with her during these seven years. At first he had admired her
because she behaved so splendidly to her abominable mother--then she had
obviously been interested in him, had talked about the things that he
was reading and his life at the bookshop. They had speedily become the
very best of friends, and she understood friendship he thought in the
right way--as though she had herself been a man. And yet she was with
that completely feminine, a woman who had known struggle from the
beginning and would know it to the end; but her personality--humorous,
pathetic, understanding--was felt in her presence so strongly that no
one ever forgot her after meeting her. Some one once said of her, “She's
the nicest ugly woman to look at I've ever seen.”
She cared immensely about her appearance. She saved, through blood and
tears, to buy clothes and then always bought the wrong ones. She had
perfect taste about everything except herself, and as soon as it touched
her it was villainous. She was untidy; her hair--streaked already with
grey--was never in its place; her dress was generally undone at the
back, her gloves had holes.
Her mother's death had left her some fifty pounds a year and she earned
another fifty pounds by typewriting. Untidy in everything else, in her
work she was scrupulously neat. She had had a story taken by _The Green
Volume_. Her friends belonged (as indeed just at this time so many
people belonged) to the Cult of the Lily, repeated the witticisms of
Oscar Wilde and treasured the art of Mr. Aubrey Beardsley. Miss Monogue
believed in the movement and rejected the affectations. In 1895, when
the reaction began, she defended her old giants, but looked forward
eagerly to new ones. She worked too hard to have very many friends, and
Peter saved her from hours of loneliness. To him she was the last word
in Criticism, in Literature. He would have liked to have fashioned
“Reuben Hallard” after the manner of _The Green Volume_, but now thought
sadly that it was as unlike that manner as possible; that is why he was
afraid to bring it to her.
“You won't like it,” he said. “I thought for a moment I had done
something fine when I finished it this afternoon, but now I know that
it's bad. It's all rough and crude. It's terribly disappointing.”
“That's all right,” she answered quietly. “We won't say any more about
it until I have read it--then we'll talk.”
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