Frances Mary Buss and her work for educationRidley, Annie E.
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Frances Mary Buss and her work for education
Ridley, Annie E.
Buss, Frances Mary, 1827-1894
R. BROWNING.
Strangers might easily receive the impression that Miss Buss was one of
those happy persons who, being blessed with an iron constitution, do not
know what illness means. This was, however, very far from the fact; for
with a temperament so intensely sensitive, she was in reality one of the
women who can be as ill as they choose to be; and a good deal of her
apparent vigour lay in the strength of the will which elected _not_ to
be ill. “Great minds have wills, where feeble ones have wishes.” It was
just because she so well knew what could be done by self-control that
she exacted so much self-control from all around her. From experience
she knew how largely the body may be made the instrument of the spirit,
and for much of her time she kept going by sheer force of that
indomitable will.
It was because she carried this effort too far, in exacting from her
woman’s strength the work that might have contented several strong men,
that she grew old before her time, and finally broke down, paying the
price of overstrain for some years before the end came.
All that we can hear of her early life gives the impression of perfect
temper, of unfailing composure, of unbroken self-command. It is only in
later years, when her great work was completed, that we find the nervous
irritability that is the price paid for over-work, or, more truly, of
over-worry, since it is not work that kills, but worry.
So much did all around her rely on her strength and vigour that it is
with surprise we note the recurrence in her letters of such passages as
these, even so many years ago:—
“September, 1872.
“It is simply sickening to think of the crowds who come to me,
and I have been so ailing in health that I have only managed to
get along at all by sitting with Berlin woolwork in the evening,
going to no meetings, and getting to bed at ten o’clock. Also,
though to tell _you_ this is dreadful, I have got through this
week only on champagne twice a day, with doses of iron!
“The champagne has, I trust, done its work and set me up, so I
hope to go on without any more until next time! My throat has
been affected without intermission this term, and the sleepless
nights have almost driven me to opiates or to a doctor. But I
think I am better, and the holidays are coming near.
“This is the history of every term, however, and the question
will arise, how long such a strain can be borne? I do my best to
keep in health, but over-strained nature will have her way
sometimes. This is perhaps a new light on my inner life. But, my
dear Annie, remember _every one_ thinks I am a proper person on
whom to make claims....”
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