Helen still smiled, but she was evidently at a loss. She added some milk
to her tea and took a slice of bread and butter before saying, more
kindly, yet more lightly than before: 'You mustn't judge me by yourself.
I'm not a bit thoughtful, you know, or warm-hearted and intellectual,
like you. I just rub along. I'm sure you'll not find it worth while
keeping in touch with me.'
'It's merely that I care for you very much,' said Althea, in a slightly
quivering voice. 'And I can't bear to think that I am nothing to you.'
There was again a little pause in which, because her eyes had suddenly
filled with tears, Althea looked down and could not see her friend.
Helen's voice, when she spoke, showed her that she was pained and
disconcerted. 'You make me feel like such a clumsy brute when you say
things like that,' she said. 'You are so kind, and I am so selfish and
self-centred. But of course I care for you too.'
'Do you really?' said Althea, who, even if she would, could not have
retained the appearance of lightness and independence. 'You really feel
me as a friend, a true friend?'
'If you really think me worth your while, of course. I don't see how you
can--an ill-tempered, ignorant, uninteresting woman, whom you've run
across in a hotel and been good to.'
'I don't think of you like that, as you know. I think you a strangely
lovely and strangely interesting person. From the first moment I saw you
you appealed to me. I felt that you needed something--love and sympathy,
perhaps. The fact that it's been a sort of chance--our meeting--makes
it all the sweeter to me.'
Again Helen was silent for a moment, and again Althea, sitting with
downcast eyes, knew that, though touched, she was uncomfortable. 'You
are too nice and kind for words,' she then said. 'I can't tell you how
kind I think it of you.'
'Then we are friends? You do feel me as a friend who will always be
interested and always care?'
'Yes, indeed; and I do so thank you.'
Althea put out her hand, and Helen gave her hers, saying, 'You _are_ a
dear,' and adding, as though to take refuge from her own discomposure,
'much too dear for the likes of me.'
The bond was thus sealed, yet Aunt Julia's shaft still stuck. It was she
who had felt near, and who had drawn Helen near. Helen, probably, would
never have thought of keeping in touch. She was Helen's friend because
she had appealed for friendship, and because Helen thought her a dear.
The only comfort was to know that Helen's humility was real. She might
have offered her friendship could she have realised that it was of value
to anybody.
It was a few evenings after this, and perhaps as a result of their talk,
that, as they sat in Althea's room over coffee, Helen said: 'Why don't
you come to England this summer, Althea?'
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