Helen was tired and lay extended on the divan in the grey dress she had
not had time to change. She had doffed her hat and, thrusting its
hatpins through it, had laid it on her knees, so that, as Gerald had
remarked, she looked rather like Bruenhilde on her rocky couch. But,
unlike Bruenhilde, her hands were clasped behind her neck, and she looked
up at the ceiling. 'A perfect little dear,' she assented.
'Did you notice her eyes when she was talking about the foxes? They were
as sorrowful and piteous as a Mater Dolorosa's. She is definite enough
about some things, isn't she? Things like right and wrong, I mean, as
she sees them.'
'Yes; she is clear about outside things, like right and wrong.'
'It's a good deal to be clear about, isn't it?'
'I suppose so,' Helen reflected. 'I don't feel that I really understand
Althea. People who aren't clear about themselves are difficult to
understand, I think.'
'It's that that really gives them a mystery. I feel that she really is a
little mysterious,' said Gerald. 'One wonders what she would do in
certain cases, and feel in certain situations, and one can't remotely
imagine. She is a sealed book.'
'_She_ wonders,' said Helen.
'And you suspect that her pages are empty?'
Helen reflected, but nothing seemed to come. She closed her eyes,
smiling, and said, 'Be off, please. I'm getting too sleepy to have
suspicions. We have plenty of time to find out whether anything is
written on Althea's pages.'
CHAPTER VIII.
But, when Gerald was gone, Helen found that she was no longer sleepy.
She lay, her eyes closed, straight and still, like an effigy on a tomb,
and she thought, intently and quietly. It was more a series of pictures
than a linking of ideas with which her mind was occupied--pictures of
her childhood and girlhood in Scotland and at Merriston House. It was
dispassionately that she watched the little figure, lonely, violent,
walking over the moors, hiding in the thickets of the garden, choking
with tears of fury, clenching teeth over fierce resentments. She almost
smiled at the sight of her. What constant resentments, what frequent
furies! They centred, of course, about the figure of her mother, lovely,
vindictive, and stony-hearted, as she had been and was. Helen's life had
dawned in the consciousness of love for this beautiful mother, whom she
had worshipped with the ardent humility of a little dog. Afterwards,
with a vehemence as great, she had grown to hate her. All her girlhood
had been filled with struggles against her mother. Sometimes for weeks
they had not spoken to each other, epochs during which, completely
indifferent though she was, Mrs. Buchanan had given herself the
satisfaction of smartly boxing her daughter's ears when her mute,
hostile presence too much exasperated her. There had been no refuge for
Helen with her father, a gloomy man, immersed in sport and study, nor in
her brother Nigel, gay and pleasant though he was. When once Nigel got
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