When these adventures were over, when he had had a shave and a shine,
and washed his hands, and looked into a department-store window that
contained ten billion yards of silk draped against polished satinwood,
when he had felt unhappy over a movie theater large enough to contain
ten times the population of Schoenstrom, and been cursed by a policeman
for jaywalking, and had passed a hotel entirely full of diplomats and
marble and caviare--then he could no longer put off telephoning to
Claire, and humbly, in a booth meant for an umbrella-stand, he got the
Eugene Gilson house, and to a female who said "Yes?" in a tone which
made it mean "No!" he ventured, "May I speak to Miss Boltwood?"
Miss Boltwood, it seemed, was out.
He was not sorry. He was relieved. He ducked out of the telephone-booth
with a sensation of escape.
Milt was in love with Claire; she was to him the purpose of life; he
thought of her deeply and tenderly and longingly. All the way into
Seattle he had brooded about her; remembered her every word and
gesture; recalled the curve of her chin, and the fresh feeling of her
hands. But Claire had suddenly become too big. In her were all these
stores, these office buildings for clever lawyers and surgeons, these
contemptuous trolley cars, these careless people in beautiful clothes.
They were too much for him. Desperately he was pushing them
back--back--fighting for breath. And she belonged with them.
He mailed the check for the stored car to her, with a note--written
standing before a hacked wall-desk in a branch post-office--which said
only, "Here's check for the boat. Did not know whether you would have
room for it at house. Tried to get you on phone, phone again just as
soon as rent room etc. Hope having happy time, M.D."
He went out to the university. On the trolley he relaxed. But he did not
exultantly feel that he had won to the Pacific; he could not regard
Seattle now as a magic city, the Bagdad of modern caravans, with Alaska
and the Orient on one hand, the forests to the north, and eastward the
spacious Inland Empire of the wheat. He saw it as a place where you had
to work hard just to live; where busy policemen despised you because you
didn't know which trolley to take; where it was incredibly hard to
remember even the names of the unceasing streets; where the conductors
said "Step lively!" and there was no room to whistle, no time to swap
stories with a Bill McGolwey at an Old Home lunch-counter.
He found the university; he talked with the authorities about entering
the engineering school; the Y. M. C. A. gave him a list of rooms; and,
because it was cheap, he chose a cubbyhole in a flat over a candy
store--a low room, which would probably keep out the rain, but had no
other virtues. It had one bed, one table, one dissipated bureau, two
straight bare chairs, and one venerable lithograph depicting a girl with
ringlets shaking her irritating forefinger at a high-church kitten.
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