Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
During all this time he had never even let her know--no, not once--of
the tremendous and soul-crushing sacrifice he had made. Like the
Spartan boy, he had concealed the fox gnawing at his vitals. He had not
complained. He had been, indeed, the model husband, as such things go
in conventional walks. If you doubted it look at his position, or that
of his children; or his wife--her mental and physical comfort, even in
her illness, her unfailing belief that he was all he should be! Never
once apparently, during all these years, had she doubted his love or
felt him to be unduly unhappy--or, if not that exactly, if not fully
accepting his love as something that was still at a fever heat, the
thing it once was--still believing that he found pleasure and happiness
in being with her, a part of the home which together they had built up,
these children they had reared, comfort in knowing that it would endure
to the end! To the end! During all these years she had gone on molding
his and her lives--as much as that was possible in his case--and those
of their children, to suit herself; and thinking all the time that she
was doing what he wanted or at least what was best for him and them.
How she adored convention! What did she not think she knew in regard
to how things ought to be--mainly what her old home surroundings had
taught her, the American idea of this, that and the other. Her theories
in regard to friends, education of the children, and so on, had in the
main prevailed, even when he did not quite agree with her; her desires
for certain types of pleasure and amusement, of companionship, and so
on, were conventional types always and had also prevailed. There had
been little quarrels, of course, always had been--what happy home is
free of them?--but still he had always given in, or nearly always, and
had acted as though he were satisfied in so doing.
But why, therefore, should he complain now, or she ever imagine, or
ever have imagined, that he was unhappy? She did not, had not. Like all
their relatives and friends of the region from which they sprang, and
here also--and she had been most careful to regulate that, courting
whom she pleased and ignoring all others--she still believed most
firmly, more so than ever, that she knew what was best for him, what he
really thought and wanted. It made him smile most wearily at times.
For in her eyes--in regard to him, at least, not always so with
others, he had found--marriage was a sacrament, sacrosanct, never to
be dissolved. One life, one love. Once a man had accepted the yoke or
even asked a girl to marry him it was his duty to abide by it. To break
an engagement, to be unfaithful to a wife, even unkind to her--what a
crime, in her eyes! Such people ought to be drummed out of the world.
They were really not fit to live--dogs, brutes!
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