"Like them! To understand them, and to see they were my brothers; but
my heart was hard with them for years. I was a man of science, as they
call it; and I told myself that in giving food to the hungry they were
only obeying the first rude instincts of a savage horde. At length a
poor priest came in a cart to the mines. Before his coming I had heard
of him--his name--his mission--and his perils; for Father Paul was a
free agent in his travels; having chosen this service in the desert
snows, instead of a stall in some cathedral-town, from a belief that
poor Catholic exiles had a higher claim on him than sleek and
fashionable folk. I knew, from the report of others, that he made the
round of Siberia, sledging from mine to mine, from mill to mill, in
order to keep alive in these Catholic exiles some remembrance of their
early faith; to say mass, to hear confessions, to marry and baptize,
to sanctify the new-made grave. Yet I hardly gave to him a second
thought. What could he do for me; a poor priest, dwelling by choice in
a savage waste, with no high sympathies and no great friends? He was
not likely to adore Napoleon, and he was certain to detest Mazzini's
name. How could I talk with such a man? The night when he arrived was
cold, his sledge was injured, and the wolves had been upon his track.
Some natural pity for his age and danger drew me to his side in our
wooden shed, and after he was thawed into life, he spoke to us, even
before he tasted food, of that love of God which was his only
strength. When he had supped on our coarse turnip soup and a little
black bread, he lay down on a mattress and fell asleep. For hours that
night I sat and gazed into his face, his white hair falling on his
pillow, and his two arms folded like a cross upon his breast. If ever
man looked like an angel in his sleep it was Father Paul. Of such men
is the Church of Christ.
"Next day I sought him in his shed, for our inspector turned this
visit into a holiday for his Catholic prisoners; and there he spoke to
me of my country and of my mother, until my heart was softened, and
the tears ran down my face. Pausing softly in his speech, he bent his
eyes upon me, as my father might have looked, and pressing me tenderly
by the hand, said: 'Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy
laden, and I will give you rest.' 'Blessed are they that mourn; for
they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek; for they shall inherit
the earth.' I had read these words a hundred times, for I was fond of
the New Testament as a book of democratic texts; but I had never felt
their force until they fell from the lips of Father Paul. I saw they
were addressed to me. My mother was about me in the air. I laid down
my philosophy, and felt once more like a little child."
His voice is low and mellow, but the tones are firm, and touch my ear
like strings in perfect tune. After a pause, I asked him how his
change of feeling worked in his relations to the Russians.
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