American essays -- 19th century; Short stories, American
You are “discouraged!” _You?_ with strong limbs, good health, the
green earth beneath your feet, and the broad blue sky above?
“Discouraged?” and why? You are poor, unknown, friendless, obscure,
unrecognized, and alone in this great swarming metropolis; the rich man
suffocates you with the dust of his pretentious chariot wheels.
As you are now, so once was he. Did he waste time whining about it?
No, by the rood! or he would not now be President of the Bank before
which he once sold beer at a penny a glass, to thirsty cabmen and
newsboys. For shame, man! get up and shake yourself, if you are not
afraid such a mass of inanity will fall to pieces. Cock your hat on your
head, torn rim and all; elbow your way through the crowd; if they don’t
move for you, _make_ them do it; push past them; you have as much right
in the world as your neighbor. If you wait for him to take you by the
hand, the grass will grow over your grave. Rush past him and get
employment. “You have tried, and failed.” So have thousands before you,
who, to-day, are pecuniarily independent. I have the most unqualified
disgust of a man who folds his hands at every obstacle, instead of
leaping over it; or who dare not do any thing under heaven, unless it be
to blaspheme God, wrong his neighbor, or dishonor woman.
I tell you, if you are determined, you _can_ get employment; but you
won’t get it by cringing round the doors of rich relations; you won’t
get it if you can’t dine on a crust, month after month, and year after
year, if need be, with hope for a dessert; you won’t get it if you stand
with your lazy hands in your pockets, listening to croakers; you won’t
do it if you don’t raise your head above every billow of discouragement
which dashes over you, and halloo to Fate, with a stout heart: “Try
again, old fellow!” No--and it is not right you should--you are good for
nothing but to go sniveling through the world, making wry faces at the
good fortune of other people. Bah! I’m disgusted with you.
* * * * *
_You_ despair. Why? “You are a widow.” Of how much sorrow is that
little word the voice? Oh! I know, poor mourner, how dark earth looks to
you. I know that sun and stars mock you with their brightness. I know
that you shut out the placid moonbeams, and pray to die. Listen! Are
there no bleeding hearts but yours? Your dead sleep peacefully; their
tears are all shed; their sighs all heaved; their weary hands folded
over quiet hearts; but oh, repiner! the _living_ sorrows that are
masked beneath the smiling faces you envy! the corroding bitterness of a
_dishonored_ hearth-stone; the mantle all too narrow, all too scant, to
hide from prying, malignant eyes, the torturing secret!--bone of your
bone, flesh of your flesh, and yet, stranger to you than the savage of
the desert--colder to you than the dead for whom you so repiningly
grieve. Ah! are there no bleeding hearts save yours? Is the “last vial”
emptied on your shrinking head?
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