It was Madame, who passed her arm round me, and looked horror-stricken at my white face and lips. The next moment I dimly remember she had caught the letter--his letter--my letter--from my hand, and read it aloud: "Mr John Braywood, Markboro, R. County Melbourne," and then, in her excitement, the great official sentence-like brand upon it--"Dead!" CHAPTER TWO. THE SORROWS OF MADAME GRAINGER. I tried so hard to bear up, to keep secret my loss, but it was all in vain. My long days of waiting for that answer had weakened and undermined my constitution, so that I had not strength to bear up against the shock, and the result was a very serious illness during which I was given over by the doctors, but somehow they were wrong. The change was long in coming, but it came, and by degrees I was convalescent, but only the shadow of my former self. Poor Madame, as we always called her, the French title as she laughingly used to tell me, bringing her ten times as many customers as would have fallen to her lot had she called herself Mrs Grainger, she tended me through my long illness as if she had been my mother, and I believe she loved me dearly. At times I had hinted at being sent away; at the expense and trouble I must be, but she used to lay her hand upon my lips and kiss my forehead. "Don't be silly, my child," she said. "You know I make money fast, and how could I spend what little you cost better than in taking care of you. "Grace, my child," she said one night, after a feeble protest on my part, "sorrow brings people closer together. You are a widow now like I am, although you never were a wife. We two, my dear, must never part." I could only kiss her hand and cry silently, as I lay back in my easy chair, thankful that if I could live my lot would be made less hard to bear. For all through my weak and weary illness, when I was not thinking of dear Jack, the thought that I must be up and doing was for ever intruding itself, and that thought of going out to battle with the world once more seemed to keep me back. I need not have troubled about my future, for that was to be my home. With returning health came greater intimacy, and by degrees I learned that Madame Grainger's troubles had been greater, perhaps, than mine, for after a brief spell of married happiness her husband, a clergyman, had succumbed to poverty and overwork, leaving her almost penniless, to drift at last into the life she had led and become a busy thriving woman. "Yes," she said to me more than once, "I have often regretted the society in which I used to move, but it is better to depend upon oneself, Grace, than to be a burden upon one's friends. I offended many by taking to this life, but I should have ceased to respect myself had I remained a poverty-stricken widow existing on the charity of those who blame me the most for my course." "You must have had a hard fight," I said.