Lottie was conscious of a strange lightness of heart when she
awoke on the morrow. It seemed as if her life had been unexpectedly
enriched. She could not understand it, nor did she seek to, being
contented with the fact that she was happy. She had always been
seeking her own enjoyment, and now she was happier than ever before.
She was not a philosopher who must analyze everything. She widely
differed from some prudent people who must take an emotion to pieces,
and resolve it into its original elements, and thus be sure that
it is properly caused and wholesome before enjoying it. Many seem
to partake of life's pleasures as did the members of the royal
family of their feasts, in the days of the ancient Roman empire,
when it was feared that poison lurked in every dish.
We have seen, however, that Lottie was not morbidly conscientious.
She had gathered honey everywhere, and often in spite of conscience's
protest. But now, for a rarity, conscience appeared with, and not
against her. She was satisfied with the fact that she felt better
than ever before; and the majority of even somewhat experienced
Christians ask, as their ground of confidence, not "What is truth?"
"What has God promised?"--but, "How do I feel to-day?" Little
wonder, then, if inexperienced Lottie, with everything to learn,
was content with being happy.
She had always looked upon religion as a painful necessity at some
remote and desperate emergency of the future; but, after the hours
spent with Hemstead, it seemed a source of joy beyond all the
pleasures of her highly favored life. She was like one who had
been living in the glare of artificial light, brilliant enough, it
is true, but who had suddenly come out into the natural sunshine,
and found it warmer, sweeter,--in brief, just what she craved and
needed.
The distrust of these exalted and emotional states is general, and
often well-founded, especially when experienced by such mercurial
temperaments as that of Lottie Marsden. And when it is remembered
that her ideas of true religion were of the vaguest kind, the
conservative will think, "Whatever may take place in a book, the
morning dew would be the type of all this feeling in real life."
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