What could he mean? Had he recognized her love, and, not being
able to return it fully, did he thus avoid her and hasten through
his visit? The bare thought crimsoned her cheek. But she felt that
this could not be true. She knew he had loved her, and he could not
have changed so soon. It was more probable that he believed her
to be totally unfit to share in his sacred work,--that he feared
she would be a hindrance,--and, therefore, he was shunning, and
seeking to escape from one who might dim the lustre of his spiritual
life and work. In some respects she had grown very humble of late,
and feared that he might be correct, and that she was indeed utterly
unfit to share in his high calling.
"But if he only knew how hard I would try!" she said, with a touch
of pathos in her tone which would have settled matters if he had
heard it.
That he was sacrificing himself rather than ask her to share in
his life's privation, did not occur to her.
Restless and unhappy, she wandered into the dining-room, where she
found Mr. Dimmerly standing on the hearth-rug, and staring at the
fire in a fit of the deepest abstraction. Lottie was so depressed
as to feel that even a little comfort from him would be welcome;
so she stole to his side and took his arm. He stroked her head with
a gentleness quite unusual with him. Finally he said, in a voice
that he meant to be very harsh and matter of fact, "Hasn't that
nephew of mine got home yet? I feel as if I could break his head."
"And I feel," said Lottie, hiding her face on his shoulder, "as
if he would break my heart, and you are the only one in the house
who understands me or cares."
"Well, well," said the old gentleman, after a little, "others have
been meddling; I think I will meddle a little."
Lottie started up in a way that surprised him, and with eyes flashing
through her tears said, "Not a word to him, as you value my love."
"Hold on," said the little man, half breathlessly. "What's the
matter? You go off like a keg of powder."
"I wouldn't sue for the hand of a king," said Lottie, heroically.
"Bless you, child, he isn't a king. He's only Frank Hemstead, my
nephew,--bound to be a forlorn home missionary, he says."
"Well, then," she said, drawing a long breath, "if he can't see for
himself, let him marry a pious Western giantess, who will go with
him for the sake of the cause instead of himself."
"In the mean time," suggested Mr. Dimmerly, "we will go back to
New York and have a good time as before."
This speech brought to the warm-hearted girl another revulsion of
feeling, and, again hiding her face on her uncle's shoulder, she
sobbed, "I would rather be his slave on a desert island than marry
the richest man in New York."
"And my wise and prudent sister thought it could be 'stopped,'"
chuckled Mr. Dimmerly.
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