Hemstead went to his room with steps that deep thought rendered
slower and slower. He forgot his weariness, and sat down before
the fire to think of one known but a few brief hours. If there are
those who can coolly predict "awful things" of the faithless and
godless, Hemstead was not one of them. The young girl who thought
him a good subject for jest and ridicule, he regarded with profound
pity. Her utter unconsciousness of danger had to him the elements
of deepest pathos.
While perplexed by contradictions in her manner and words, he
concluded that she was what she seemed, a girl of unusual force
of mind, frank and kindly, and full of noble impulses, but whose
religious nature was but slightly developed. He at that time would
have been shocked and indignant if he had known the truth. Her
natural tendencies had been good. Her positive nature would never
waver weakly along the uncertain boundary of good and evil, as was
the case with Bel Parton. She was one who would be decided and
progressive in one direction or the other, but now was clearly
on the sinister side of truth and moral loveliness. Surrounding
influences had been adverse. She had yielded to them, and they had
carried her farther astray than if she had been of a cautious and
less forceful temperament. While therefore full of good impulses,
she was also passionate and selfish. Much homage had made her
imperious, exacting, and had developed no small degree of vanity.
She exulted in the power and pre-eminence that beauty gave, and
often exerted the former cruelly, though it is due to her to state
that she did not realize the pain she caused. While her own heart
slept, she could not understand the aching disquiet of others that
she toyed with. That it was good sport, high-spiced excitement, and
occupation for her restless, active mind, was all she considered.
As she would never be neutral in her moral character, so she was
one who would do much of either harm or good. Familiarity with
the insincerities of fashionable life had blurred her sense of
truthfulness in little things, and in matters of policy she could
hide her meaning or express another as well as her veteran mother.
And yet there were great possibilities of good in her character.
She had a substratum of sound common sense; was wholesomely averse
to meanness, cowardice, and temporizing; best of all, she was not
shallow and weak. She could appreciate noble action, and her mind
could kindle at great thoughts if presented clearly and strongly.
She could scarcely be blamed severely for being what she was, for
she had only responded to the influences that had ever surrounded
her, and been moulded by them. Her character was rapidly forming,
but not as yet fixed. Therefore her best chance of escaping a moral
deformity as marked as her external beauty was the coming under an
entirely different class of influences.
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