Miss Trotter felt a sudden thrill. The recollection of Dr. Duchesne's
strange scrutiny of her, of her own mistake, which she now knew might
have been the truth--flashed across her confused consciousness in swift
corroboration of his words. It was a DOUBLE revelation to her; for what
else was the meaning of this subtle, insidious, benumbing sweetness that
was now creeping over her sense and spirit and holding her fast. She
felt she ought to listen no longer--to speak--to say something--to get
up--to turn and confront him coldly--but she was powerless. Her reason
told her that she had been the victim of a trick--that having deceived
her once, he might be doing so again; but she could not break the spell
that was upon her, nor did she want to. She must know the culmination of
this confession, whose preamble thrilled her so strangely.
“The girl was kind and sympathetic,” he went on, “but I was not so great
a fool as not to know that she was a flirt and accustomed to attention.
I suppose it was in my desperation that I told my brother, thinking he
would tell you, as he did. He would not tell me what you said to him,
except that you seemed to be indignant at the thought that I was only
flirting with Frida. Then I resolved to speak with you myself--and I
did. I know it was a stupid, clumsy contrivance. It never seemed so
stupid before I spoke to you. It never seemed so wicked as when you
promised to help me, and your eyes shone on me for the first time with
kindness. And it never seemed so hopeless as when I found you touched
with my love for another. You wonder why I kept up this deceit until you
promised. Well, I had prepared the bitter cup myself--I thought I ought
to drink it to the dregs.”
She turned quietly, passionately, and, standing up, faced him with a
little cry. “Why are you telling me this NOW?”
He rose too, and catching her hands in his, said, with a white face,
“Because I love you.”
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