‘Let us offer up the sacrifice of prayer, my brothers and sisters and
fellow-sinners.’ Yes; but it was I who was the sacrifice. It was our
poor, sinful, worldly-minded brother here present who was wrestled for.
The now-opening career of this our unawakened brother might lead to his
becoming a minister of what was called ‘the church.’ That was what _he_
looked to. The church. Not the chapel, Lord. The church. No rectors,
no vicars, no archdeacons, no bishops, no archbishops, in the chapel,
but, O Lord! many such in the church. Protect our sinful brother from
his love of lucre. Cleanse from our unawakened brother’s breast his sin
of worldly-mindedness. The prayer said infinitely more in words, but
nothing more to any intelligible effect.
Then Brother Gimblet came forward, and took (as I knew he would) the
text, ‘My kingdom is not of this world.’ Ah! but whose was, my
fellow-sinners? Whose? Why, our brother’s here present was. The only
kingdom he had an idea of was of this world. (‘That’s it!’ from several
of the congregation.) What did the woman do when she lost the piece of
money? Went and looked for it. What should our brother do when he lost
his way? (‘Go and look for it,’ from a sister.) Go and look for it,
true. But must he look for it in the right direction, or in the wrong?
(‘In the right,’ from a brother.) There spake the prophets! He must
look for it in the right direction, or he couldn’t find it. But he had
turned his back upon the right direction, and he wouldn’t find it. Now,
my fellow-sinners, to show you the difference betwixt worldly-mindedness
and unworldly-mindedness, betwixt kingdoms not of this world and kingdoms
_of_ this world, here was a letter wrote by even our worldly-minded
brother unto Brother Hawkyard. Judge, from hearing of it read, whether
Brother Hawkyard was the faithful steward that the Lord had in his mind
only t’other day, when, in this very place, he drew you the picter of the
unfaithful one; for it was him that done it, not me. Don’t doubt that!
Brother Gimblet then groaned and bellowed his way through my composition,
and subsequently through an hour. The service closed with a hymn, in
which the brothers unanimously roared, and the sisters unanimously
shrieked at me, That I by wiles of worldly gain was mocked, and they on
waters of sweet love were rocked; that I with mammon struggled in the
dark, while they were floating in a second ark.
I went out from all this with an aching heart and a weary spirit: not
because I was quite so weak as to consider these narrow creatures
interpreters of the Divine Majesty and Wisdom, but because I was weak
enough to feel as though it were my hard fortune to be misrepresented and
misunderstood, when I most tried to subdue any risings of mere
worldliness within me, and when I most hoped that, by dint of trying
earnestly, I had succeeded.
SEVENTH CHAPTER
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