A worldly little devil was mother’s usual name for me. Whether I cried
for that I was in the dark, or for that it was cold, or for that I was
hungry, or whether I squeezed myself into a warm corner when there was a
fire, or ate voraciously when there was food, she would still say, ‘O,
you worldly little devil!’ And the sting of it was, that I quite well
knew myself to be a worldly little devil. Worldly as to wanting to be
housed and warmed, worldly as to wanting to be fed, worldly as to the
greed with which I inwardly compared how much I got of those good things
with how much father and mother got, when, rarely, those good things were
going.
Sometimes they both went away seeking work; and then I would be locked up
in the cellar for a day or two at a time. I was at my worldliest then.
Left alone, I yielded myself up to a worldly yearning for enough of
anything (except misery), and for the death of mother’s father, who was a
machine-maker at Birmingham, and on whose decease, I had heard mother
say, she would come into a whole courtful of houses ‘if she had her
rights.’ Worldly little devil, I would stand about, musingly fitting my
cold bare feet into cracked bricks and crevices of the damp
cellar-floor,—walking over my grandfather’s body, so to speak, into the
courtful of houses, and selling them for meat and drink, and clothes to
wear.
At last a change came down into our cellar. The universal change came
down even as low as that,—so will it mount to any height on which a human
creature can perch,—and brought other changes with it.
We had a heap of I don’t know what foul litter in the darkest corner,
which we called ‘the bed.’ For three days mother lay upon it without
getting up, and then began at times to laugh. If I had ever heard her
laugh before, it had been so seldom that the strange sound frightened me.
It frightened father too; and we took it by turns to give her water.
Then she began to move her head from side to side, and sing. After that,
she getting no better, father fell a-laughing and a-singing; and then
there was only I to give them both water, and they both died.
FOURTH CHAPTER
WHEN I was lifted out of the cellar by two men, of whom one came peeping
down alone first, and ran away and brought the other, I could hardly bear
the light of the street. I was sitting in the road-way, blinking at it,
and at a ring of people collected around me, but not close to me, when,
true to my character of worldly little devil, I broke silence by saying,
‘I am hungry and thirsty!’
‘Does he know they are dead?’ asked one of another.
‘Do you know your father and mother are both dead of fever?’ asked a
third of me severely.
‘I don’t know what it is to be dead. I supposed it meant that, when the
cup rattled against their teeth, and the water spilt over them. I am
hungry and thirsty.’ That was all I had to say about it.
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