Gilead Balm, knight errant : $b His adventures in search of the truth — John Shaqi
Gilead Balm, knight errant : $b His adventures in search of the truthCapes, Bernard
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Gilead Balm, knight errant : $b His adventures in search of the truth
Capes, Bernard
Detective and mystery stories, English; English fiction -- 20th century
The cellar he found himself in was fairly deep, but nothing out of the
common. Stone bins pigeon-holed all one side of it; the other was the
bare wall. Moving pallidly, Gilead examined all its bricked-up length.
At the last moment he recollected the door, and thinking to return to
it and investigate the lock, found the match burned low in his
fingers. Only a second or two of life remained to it; he was standing
by the ultimate bin, when he perceived a heap of sacking lying within
it. He dragged the mass hurriedly out, and, casting it on the floor,
observed a solitary bottle which it had concealed. He had but time to
grasp this by the neck, when the match burned his fingers, and, with a
gasping exclamation, he dropped it, and was in utter darkness once
more. Feeling for the sacking, he let himself down upon it, hugging
his find.
And now, in truth, he was committed to the ordeal, with only a bottle
for his companion. He was a completely temperate man, and in any case
he had no idea what the bottle contained; yet somehow the feel of its
sleek sides was a solace to him. Unopened it seemed to cheer and
inebriate, as the presence of a jovial comrade might, though fast
asleep by one’s side in a haunted house. He patted it fondly, and
closed his eyes.
The blackness weighed upon them, instantly and horribly. He opened
them with a start, as if he had only emerged just in time from
drowning waters. But they took no comfort from that sightless
recovery. He strove to concentrate his thoughts on his interests, his
ambition, even his gold. It was all useless. Light, he realized, or at
least some dilution of darkness, was necessary to sane thought as it
was to healthy growth. Without it all things stagnated and fed upon
themselves. The coffers of his banks might be bursting with his
hoards; they were impotent to buy him one moment of
self-forgetfulness. All his omnipotence could not command him a right
ray of reason.
“This will not do,” he thought. “It is childish and contemptible.”
Lying on his side, he closed his lids again determinedly; and straight
with the action, it seemed, there was shut into his mind a torturing
demon. “The innocent man,” it kept whispering to him, “failed, for all
his innocence, to keep his reason. No self-conscious probity can be
proof for long against these supernormal conditions. A hardened
conscience could resist them more effectually.”
He reviled the tempter, hated him, found himself suddenly listening to
him, with his forehead all clammy and his hands shaking. To be goaded
into strangling himself in this black and loathsome pit! The thought
was monstrous, incredible--and it clung to him. He sat up in a gasping
panic. He forced himself to repeat hundreds of lines and passages from
memory. Presently he found that his tongue was running involuntarily
into inanities and blasphemies, and he stopped.
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