Sally had shrunk as far away from Clem Carson as the seat of the
“flivver” permitted, phrases from Mrs. Stone’s embarrassed, vague,
terrifying warnings boiling and churning in her mind: “Keep your body
pure”—“mustn’t let men take any liberties with you”—“you’re a big girl
now, things you ought to know”—“if you’re led astray, it will be due to
evils in your own nature”—
She suddenly loathed herself, her budding, curving young body that she
had taken such innocent delight in as she bathed for her journey. She
wanted to shrink and shrink and shrink, until she was a little girl
again, too young to know “the facts of life,” as Mrs. Stone, blushing
and embarrassed, had called the half-truths she had told Sally. She
wanted to climb over the door of the car, drop into the hot dust of the
road, and run like a dog-chased rabbit back into the safety of the Home.
There were no men there—no queer, different male beings who would want
to “take liberties”—
“My land! Scared of me?” Clem Carson chuckled. “You poor little chicken!
Don’t mind me, Sally. I don’t mean no harm, teasing you for a kiss. Land
alive! I got a girl of my own, ain’t I? Darned proud of her, too, and
I’d cut the heart outa any man that tried to take advantage of her.
Ain’t got no call to be scared of me, Sally.”
She smiled waveringly, shyness making her lips stiff, but she relaxed a
little, though she kept as far away from the man as ever. In spite of
her dread of the future and her bitter disappointment over Miss Pond’s
disclosures as to her mother, she was finding the trip to the farm an
adventure. In the twelve years of her life in the State Orphans’ Asylum
she had never before left the orphanage unaccompanied by droves of other
sheep-like, timid little girls, and unchaperoned by sharp-voiced,
eagle-eyed matrons.
She felt queer, detached, incomplete, like an arm or a leg dissevered
from a giant body; she even had the panicky feeling that, like such a
dismembered limb, she would wither and die away from that big body of
which she had been a part for so long. But it was pleasant to bump
swiftly along the hot, dusty white road, fringed with odorous, flowering
weeds. Houses became less and less frequent; few children ran barefoot
along the road, scurrying out of the path of the automobile.
Occasionally a woman, with a baby sprawling on her hip, appeared in the
doorway of a roadside shack and shaded her eyes with her hand as she
squinted at the car.
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