England -- Fiction; Ghost stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
"A little over a year ago. Well, I thought I had done what was required
of me. But directly after the wedding, such a state of terror came over
me--perfectly unreasonable--I became almost unconscious. My present wife
asked me if I was ill, and I said I was. We got to Paris. I felt I was
dying. But I said I was going out to see a doctor, and I found myself
kneeling in a church. Then I found peace--and Lucy. She had her arms
round me, and I was like a child at peace. I must have knelt there for a
couple of hours, in Lucy's arms. I _never_ felt like that when I was
alive: why, I couldn't stand that sort of thing! It's all come on
after--after----And now, I daren't offend Lucy's spirit. If I do, I
suffer tortures till I've made peace again, till she folds me in her
arms. Then I can live. But she won't let me go near the present Mrs.
Hale. I--I--I daren't go near her."
He looked up at me with fear, and shame, and shameful secrecy, and a
sort of gloating showing in his unmanned blue eyes. He had been talking
as if in his sleep.
"Why did your dead wife urge you to marry again?" I said.
"I don't know," he replied. "I don't know. She was older than I was, and
all the cleverness was on her side. She was a very clever woman, and I
was never much in the intellectual line, myself. I just took it for
granted she liked me. She never showed jealousy, but I think now,
perhaps she was jealous all the time, and kept it under. I don't know. I
think she never felt quite straight about having married me. It seems
like that. As if she had something on her mind. Do you know, while she
was alive, I never gave it a thought. And now I'm aware of nothing else
but her. It's as if her spirit wanted to live in my body, or at any
rate--I don't know----"
His blue eyes were glazed, almost fishy, with fear and gloating shame.
He had a short nose, and full, self-indulgent lips, and a once-comely
chin. Eternally a careless boy of thirteen. But now, care had got him in
decay.
"And what does your present wife say?" I asked.
He poured himself some more wine.
"Why," he replied, "except for her, I shouldn't mind so much. She says
nothing. Lady Lathkill has explained everything to her, and she agrees
that--that--a spirit from the other side is more important than mere
pleasure--you know what I mean. Lady Lathkill says that this is a
preparation for my next incarnation, when I am going to serve Woman, and
help Her to take Her place."
He looked up again, trying to be proud in his shame.
"Well, what a damned curious story!" exclaimed Lord Lathkill. "Mother's
idea for herself--she had it in a message too--is that she is coming on
earth the next time to save the animals from the cruelty of man. That's
why she hates meat at table, or anything that has to be killed."
"And does Lady Lathkill encourage you in this business with your dead
wife?" said I.
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