England -- Fiction; Ghost stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
"Don't cry, Carlotta," he said. "Really, don't. We haven't killed one
another. We're too decent, after all. We've almost become two spirits
side by side. We've almost become two ghosts to one another, wrestling.
Oh, but I want you to get back your body, even if I can't give it you. I
want my flesh and blood, Carlotta, and I want you to have yours. We've
suffered so much the other way. And the children, it is as well they are
dead. They were born of our will and our disembodiment. Oh, I feel like
the Bible. Clothe me with flesh again, and wrap my bones with sinew, and
let the fountain of blood cover me. My spirit is like a naked nerve on
the air."
Carlotta has ceased to weep. She sat with her head dropped, as if
asleep. The rise and fall of her small, slack breasts was still heavy,
but they were lifting on a heaving sea of rest. It was as if a slow,
restful dawn were rising in her body, while she slept. So slack, so
broken she sat, it occurred to me that in this crucifixion business the
crucified does not put himself alone on the cross. The woman is nailed
even more inexorably up, and crucified in the body even more cruelly.
It is a monstrous thought. But the deed is even more monstrous. Oh,
Jesus, didn't you know that you couldn't be crucified alone!--that the
two thieves crucified along with you were the two women, your wife and
your mother! You called them two thieves. But what would they call you,
who had their women's bodies on the cross? The abominable trinity on
Calvary!
I felt an infinite tenderness for my dear Carlotta. She could not yet be
touched. But my soul streamed to her like warm blood. So she sat slack
and drooped, as if broken. But she was not broken. It was only the great
release.
Luke sat with the hand of the dark young woman pressed against his
breast. His face was warm and fresh, but he too breathed heavily, and
stared unseeing. Mrs. Hale sat at his side erect and mute. But she loved
him, with erect, black-faced, remote power.
"Morier!" said Luke to me. "If you can help Carlotta, you will, won't
you? I can't do any more for her now. We are in mortal fear of each
other."
"As much as she'll let me," said I, looking at her drooping figure, that
was built on such a strong frame.
The fire rustled on the hearth as we sat in complete silence. How long
it lasted I cannot say. Yet we were none of us startled when the door
opened.
It was the Colonel, in a handsome brocade dressing-gown, looking
worried.
Luke still held the dark young woman's hand clasped against his thigh.
Mrs. Hale did not move.
"I thought you fellows might help me," said the Colonel, in a worried
voice, as he closed the door.
"What is wrong, Colonel?" said Luke.
The Colonel looked at him, looked at the clasped hands of Luke and the
dark young woman, looked at me, looked at Carlotta, without changing his
expression of anxiety, fear, and misery. He didn't care about us.
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