Gothic fiction; Ireland -- History -- Rebellion of 1798 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Romans à clef
And now the glowing picture of guilt is at an end; the sword of
justice hangs over the head of a devoted criminal; and the tortures of
remorse are alone left me to describe. But no: remorse came not yet:
absence but drew Calantha nearer to the object of her attachment. They
never love so well, who have never been estranged. Who is there that
in absence clings not with increasing fondness to the object of its
idolatry, watches not every post, and trembling with alarm, anxiety
and suspense, reads not again and again every line that the hand of
love has traced? Is there a fault that is not pardoned in absence? Is
there a doubt that is not harboured and believed, however agonizing?
Yet, though believed, is it not at once forgiven? Every feeling but
one is extinct in absence; every idea but one image is banished as
profane. Lady Avondale had sacrificed herself and Glenarvon, as she
then thought, for others; but she could not bring herself to endure
the pang she had voluntarily inflicted.
She lived therefore but upon the letters she daily received from
him; for those letters were filled with lamentations for her loss,
and with the hope of a speedy return. Calantha felt no horror at her
conduct. She deceived herself: conscience itself had ceased to reprove
a heart so absorbed, so lost in the labyrinth of guilt. Lord Avondale
wrote to her but seldom: she heard however with uneasiness that his
present situation was one that exposed him to much danger; and after
a skirmish with the rebels, when she was informed that he was safe,
she knelt down, and said, “Thank God for it!” as if he had still been
dear. His letters, however, were repulsive and cold. Glenarvon’s, on
the other hand, breathed the life and soul of love.
In one of these letters, Glenarvon informed her, that he was going to
England, to meet at Mortanville Priory several of his friends. Lady
Mandeville, Lady Augusta Selwyn, and Lady Trelawney, were to be of
the party. “I care not,” he said, “who may be there. This I know too
well, that my Calantha will not.” He spoke of Lady Mowbrey and Lady
Elizabeth with praise. “Oh! if your Avondale be like his sister, whom
I have met with since we parted, what indeed have you not sacrificed
for me?” He confided to her, that Lady Mandeville had entreated him
to visit her in London: “But what delight can I find in her society?”
he said: “it will only remind me of one I have lost.”
His letter, after his arrival in England, ended thus: “I will bear this
separation as long as I can, my Calantha; but my health is consumed
by my regret; and, whatever you may do, I live alone—entirely alone.
We may be alone in the midst of crowds; and if indifference, nay,
almost dislike to others, is a proof of attachment to you, you will
be secure and satisfied. I had a stormy passage from Ireland. Is it
ominous of future trouble? Vain is this separation.
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