Gothic fiction; Ireland -- History -- Rebellion of 1798 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Romans à clef
If Glenarvon’s letters had given joy to Calantha in more prosperous
and happier days, when surrounded by friends, what must they have
appeared to her now, when bereft of all? They were as the light
of Heaven to one immersed in darkness: they were as health to the
wretch who has pined in sickness: they were as riches to the poor,
and joy to the suffering heart. What then must have been her feelings
when they suddenly and entirely ceased! At first, she thought the
wind was contrary, and the mails irregular. Of one thing she felt
secure—Glenarvon could not mean to deceive her. His last letter,
too, was kinder than any other; and the words with which he concluded
it were such as to inspire her with confidence. “If, by any chance,
however improbable,” he said, “my letters fail to reach you, impute
the delay to any cause whatever: but do me enough justice not for one
moment to doubt of me. I will comply with every request of yours; and
from you I require in return nothing but remembrance—the remembrance
of one who has forgotten himself, the world, fame, hope, ambition—all
here, and all hereafter, but you.”
Every one perhaps has felt the tortures of suspense: every one knows
its lengthened pangs: it is not necessary here to paint them. Weeks
now passed, instead of days, and still not one line, one word from
Glenarvon. Then it was that Lady Avondale thus addressed him:
“It is in vain, my dearest friend, that I attempt to deceive myself.
It is now two weeks since I have watched, with incessant anxiety,
for one of those dear, those kind letters, which had power to still
the voice of conscience, and to make one, even as unworthy as I am,
comparatively blest. You accused me of coldness; yet I have written
since, I fear, with only too much warmth. Alas! I have forgotten all
the modesty and dignity due to my sex and situation, to implore for
one line, one little line, which might inform me you were well, and
not offended. Lord Avondale’s return, I told you, had been delayed.
His absence, his indifference, are now my only comfort in life. Were
it otherwise, how could I support the unmeasured guilt I have heaped
upon my soul? The friends of my youth are estranged by my repeated
errors and long neglect. I am as lonely, as miserable in your absence
as you can wish.
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