"DEAR WALDEN,"--it ran--"The spirit moves me to write to you, not
only because it occurs to me that I have failed to do so for a long
time, but also because I feel a certain necessity for thought-
expansion to someone, who, like yourself, is accustomed to the habit
of thinking. The tendency of the majority nowadays is,--or so it
appears to me,--to forget the purpose for which the brain was
designed, or rather to use it for no higher object than that for
which it is employed by the brute creation, namely to consider the
ways and means of securing food, and then to ruminate on the self-
gratification which follows the lusts of appetite. In fact, 'to rot
and rot,--and thereby hangs a tale!' But before I enter into any
particulars of my own special phase or mood, let me ask how it fares
with you in your small and secluded parish? All must be well, I
imagine, otherwise doubtless I should have heard. It seems only the
other day that I came, at your request, to consecrate your beautiful
little church of 'The Saint's Rest,'--yet seven years have rolled
away since then, leaving indelible tracks of age on me, as probably
on you also, my dear fellow!--though you have always carried old
Time on your back more lightly and easily than I. To me he has ever
been the Arabian Nights' inexorable 'Old Man of the Sea,' whose
habit is to kill unless killed. At fifty-one I feel myself either
'rusting' or mellowing; I wonder which you will judge the most
fitting appellation for me when we next meet? Mind and memory play
me strange tricks in my brief moments of solitude, and whenever I
think of you, I imagine it can only be yesterday that we two college
lads walked and talked together in the drowsy old streets of Oxford
and made our various plans for our future lives with all the superb
dominance and assertiveness of youth, which is so delightful while
it lasts, despite the miserable deceptions it practises upon us. One
thing, however, which I gained in the past time, and which has never
deceived me, is your friendship,--and how much I owe to you no one
but myself can ever tell. Good God!--how superior you always were,
and are, to me! Why did you efface yourself so completely for my
sake? I often ask this question, and except for the fact that it
would be impossible to you to even make an attempt to override, for
mere ambition, anyone for whom you had a deep affection, I cannot
imagine any answer. But as matters have turned out with me I think
it might have been better after all, had you been in my place and I
in yours! A small 'cure of souls' would have put my mental fibre to
less torture, than the crowding cares of my diocese, which depress
me more and more as they increase. Many things seem to me hopeless,-
-utterly irremediable! The shadow of a pre-ponderating, defiant,
all-triumphant Evil stalks abroad everywhere--and the clergy are as
much affected by it as the laymen. I feel that the world is far more
Christ-less to-day after two thousand years of preaching and
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