Godey's Lady's Book, Vol. 48, No. XVIII, April, 1854Various
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Godey's Lady's Book, Vol. 48, No. XVIII, April, 1854
Various
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He remained in this position for full an hour, not moving a single muscle,
and more like a dead than a living thing. Then he arose suddenly, and
paced the apartment with a vigorous and hasty step. His limbs were firm
and his form athletic; it was his _head_ only that looked old. This
also lasted some time, and then he sat down once more, and, unlocking a
concealed drawer, drew forth a letter and a miniature. Upon the letter
he gazed long and earnestly, his look assuming an expression of mingled
terror and dejection piteous to behold. Laying down the picture with
a sigh, he then opened the billet and began to read, his countenance
becoming each moment more careworn and haggard. And it was not strange it
should be so; for it is a mournful thing to look upon the letters that
once told of the throbbing affection of some friend or loved one, when
the friendship is dead or merged in a deeper feeling for another, or the
love is banished forever from its chosen temple. To recall the words that
dropped on the page; archangels proclaiming with trumpet notes that we
were the idol of one beating heart at least; to bring up again our old
smile, and find it gleams, and with no Promethean power, upon affection's
corse. Ah me, 'tis sad, indeed! The reader muttered to himself ever and
anon, but his words were disjointed and unintelligible. He sighed, too,
frequently and deeply, and even groaned aloud as he read the following
passage:--
"Oh, believe me, your highness, it is fate, and not my own will, that
makes me seem ungrateful! The gratitude your priceless favor has
engendered in my breast is so warm, so fervid, that _my life_ would be
cheerfully given in requital; but when you ask _my heart_, alas! I can
only say, I have it not to give. Years ago, ere I had seen your highness,
or dreamed of the possibility of our ever meeting, Love had in my heart
a Minerva birth, and, though the object of it lies in a bloody grave in
a stranger's land, it will live in my own weary soul while it remains
on earth, and accompany it when it flees to join him. You say, 'Perhaps
I have not yet been fortunate enough to win your love or attract your
regard but let me beseech you at least to receive and weigh the depth,
the purity, the strength of my devotion against that of other men ere you
decide.' Monseignor, you _compel_, even were _I not willing to accord_, my
'esteem;' my worthless 'regard,' and all the love my father and the dead
do not claim, you also have; but were I to consent to your request, and
become your wife, at his own altar should I send up a perjured vow to God."
Carefully, he placed both letter and picture in the drawer from whence he
had taken them; but, instead of locking it, drew forth another "billet."
It was much shorter, a mere note, in fact, but seemed to contain matter as
pregnant with agitation as its predecessor. He paused some time over the
following postscript:--
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