I had to listen to some more remarks from the Warden, all of which were
spun out in his extraordinary way, and at last I was introduced to my
tutor, Mr. Gilbert Edwardes, who took me on one side and set to work
telling me what lectures I was to attend. I think he meant to be
friendly but he had a dreadfully stiff manner, and I am sure that he
found it very difficult to unbend. He reminded me most strongly of a
shirt with too much starch in it, or whatever it is that makes shirts
as stiff as boards.
Later on in the day I went to see him in his rooms in college and he
gave me a little advice and exhorted me to work. It was all a
cut-and-dried sort of affair which did not appeal to any feelings I
had, but since he was my tutor I thought I had better tell him
something about myself.
He was even smaller than the Warden and quite the most prim-looking man
I have ever beheld. His face was colourless and smooth, and as I sat
opposite him in his gloomy room he looked so tidy and sure of himself
that I found a great difficulty in speaking to him. Having said the
usual things he was very obviously expecting me to go, but I did not
want him to begin by thinking that I was a saint, though why I imagined
that he was in any danger of thinking so I cannot explain. He had,
however, said so much about work and the great care I must take in
avoiding men who distracted me from my duty, that I thought I had
better tell him that I was a very human being.
I never remember having twiddled my thumbs before but I caught myself
doing it in his room. He was so placid and demure that I could not
imagine that he had ever done a foolish thing in his life. It was
impossible for me to think that he had ever been young, and I wanted
him to know that I was both young and foolish. He must have known the
one and I expect he guessed the other, but at any rate my intention was
to begin fair. Then whatever happened he would not be able to say that
I had not warned him.
But he made me so nervous that I did not get the right words, and I
made him look more like a poker then ever. "Thanks, most awfully," I
began, and it was a bad beginning, "for all your advice. But I want to
tell you that I do the most stupid things without meaning to do them.
I mean that they only strike me as being stupid after I have done them."
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