Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Nature -- Fiction; Triangles (Interpersonal relations) -- Fiction; Wales -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
Reddin's presence tore to pieces the things she loved--delicate leafy
things--as if they were tissue-paper and he had walked through it. Her
pleasures seemed to mean nothing when he was with her and before his
loud laughter her wonderful faery-haunted days shrivelled. All she knew
was that, now she lived at Undern, she never went out in the green dawn
or came home wreathed in pansy and wild snapdragon.
Reddin had imposed a deeper change on her than the change from
maid to wife. He had robbed her of a thing frailer and rarer than
maidenhood--the sacramental love of Nature. It is only the fairest,
the highest and fullest matings that do not rob the soul of this,
even when it is an old tried joy. He had wronged her as deeply as
one human being can wrong another. His theft was cruel as that of
one who destroys a man's God. And the strange part of it was that
never, as long as he lived, would he know that he had done so, or
even guess that there had been any treasure to rifle. He would
probably, as an old man, long past desire, repent of the physical
part of the affair. Yet this was so much the lesser of the two.
Indeed, if he had been able to win her love, it would have been,
not wrong-doing, but righteousness. That a woman should, in the
evolution of life, cease to be a virgin and become a mother is a
thing so natural and so purely physical as hardly to need comment;
but that the immortal part of her should be robbed, that she should
cease to be part of an entity in a world where personality is the only
rare and precious thing--this is tragic.
Reddin could not help his over-virility, nor could he help having the
insensitive nature that could enjoy the physical side of sex without
the spiritual; probably he could not help being the kind of man that
supplies the most rabid imperialists, reactionaries, materialists. (He
always spoke of the heathen Chinee, lower orders, beastly foreigners,
mad fanatics, and silly sentimentalists, these last being those who
showed any kind of mercy.) It seemed that he could not help seeing
nothing outside his own narrow views.
But it did seem a pity that he never tried to alter in the least. It
did seem a pity that, after so many centuries, so many matings and
births, all his emblazoned and crested ancestors should have produced
merely--Reddin, a person exactly like themselves.
* * * * *
Rain rustled on the window and the wind roared in the elms. The trees
round Undern Pool stooped and swung in the attitude of mowers. Hazel
knew that the Mountain would be even wilder to-night. Yet the Mountain
shone in paradisic colours--her little garden; her knitting; the quiet
Sundays; the nightly prayers; above all, Edward's presence, in the aura
of which no harm could come--for all these things she passionately
longed.
They were not home as the wild was, but they were a haven. They were
not ecstasy, but they were peace.
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