Good-bye to all that : $b An autobiographyGraves, Robert
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Good-bye to all that : $b An autobiography
Graves, Robert
Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Graves, Robert, 1895-1985; World War, 1914-1918 -- Personal narratives, British
The last thing that is discarded by Protestants when they reject
religion altogether is a vision of Christ as the perfect man. That
persisted with me, sentimentally, for years. At the age of nineteen I
wrote a poem called ‘In the Wilderness.’ It was about Christ meeting
the scapegoat—a silly, quaint poem-and has appeared in at least seventy
anthologies. Its perpetual recurrence. Strangers are always writing to
me to say what a beautiful poem it is, and how much strength it has
given them, and would I, etc.? Here, for instance, is a letter that
came yesterday:
Sir,—I heard with great delight your beautiful poem ‘In the
Wilderness,’ broadcast from 2LO last night, and am writing to you
because your poem has given me strength and hope. I am a gentlelady
in need—in great need—not of a gift, but of a _loan_, on interest of
5 per cent. I also need a kind friend to show me human sympathy and
to help me if possible by an introduction to a really upright and
conscientious London solicitor who will fight my cause, not primarily
for the filthy lucre, but because it is waging the the battle of
Right against the most infamous Wrong. First of all I ask you to
believe that I am writing you the simple truth. I also am gifted as a
writer, but as my physical health has always been a great struggle,
and poverty from my childhood has been my lot, and I will not stoop
to write down to the popular taste, and perhaps, also, because I
have no influential friends to give me a helping hand, I earn very
little by my pen. But I know how to wield a pen, and I am going
to put myself into this letter just as I am—I am not apt to deceive,
I hate lies and every form of deception. This letter is ‘a bow sent
at a venture,’—to see if you would like to help a literary sister
who is being gravely wronged by her only near relative, an abnormal
woman, who has hated her for years without any cause. To be very
direct—I need £10 for one year at 5 per cent.—to be repaid £10, 10s.
0d. I need it _at once, very urgently_—to pay arrears of furnished
digs—£3, 13s. 0d.—Milk Bill 16s. 8d., Grocery Bill 10s. 6d. and coal
1s. 8d.—then to leave Bolton (the black town of mills which fogs
incessantly) and go for a change to Blackpool: then to go up to Town
to put my legal business into a London solicitor’s hands. I will
sign a Promissory Note for £10, 10s. 0d., to repay a year hence. I
am cultured and and highly educated and well-born. I was trained
to teach on the higher schools and I hold high testimonials for
teaching. But I overworked and at last became consumptive, and had
tuberculosis of both lungs. It was taken early and I am relatively
cured. But my teaching career is broken, and I do so love teaching.
In consequence of this I have a monthly pension from a Philanthropic
Society of £2, 11s. 8d. But it is so tiny, I cannot possibly live on
it, squeeze as I may. But an inheritance of over £1000 is mine, which
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Good-bye to all that : $b An autobiography — John Shaqi
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