Graham's Magazine, Vol. XIX, No. 3, September 1841 — John Shaqi
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XIX, No. 3, September 1841Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XIX, No. 3, September 1841
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Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
had been made at the moment when the certainty of entire separation from
the object of her affection had made her utterly regardless of her
future fate. She neither accepted nor rejected him; her father managed
the whole matter, and she had culpably sacrificed the peace of both by
thus weakly yielding to despair. Some months after her marriage, the
news of her lover’s death threw her into a paroxysm of grief and
self-reproach, and taught the husband that he had won the hand only,
while the heart was still another’s. Her feelings were too pure, and her
mind too deeply imbued with truth, to be satisfied with the deception
which her silence had practised upon her husband; and as her inert and
timid temper had been the cause of her error, she determined to devote
her life to its expiation. But she mistook penance for expiation.
Instead of resolutely stifling her regrets for the past, and applying
herself to the fulfilment of her duties—instead of remembering that
duty to her husband required the oblivion of former affections—she
vainly fancied that by giving herself up to sorrow, she should make a
proper atonement for her fault; and she therefore sought not to check
the ravages which grief was making in her health. For seven long years
did the Colonel watch over the failing strength and minister to the
daily comforts of her whose heart was buried in the grave of another.
She esteemed him, she was grateful to him, she loved him with sisterly
affection; but she remembered the thrill which a dearer voice had once
sent to her heart, and because her husband could awaken none of those
fervent feelings of youthful passion, she rejected the peace which might
yet have grown up in the calm atmosphere of domestic life, and cherished
her unhappiness like a bosom friend. She died at length in her husband’s
arms, lamenting, when too late, the weakness and morbid sensibility
which had led her to waste her life in pining after unsubstantial bliss,
when true contentment might have been the daily companion of her
existence.
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