Graham's Magazine, Vol. XLI, No. 6, December 1852Various
General
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XLI, No. 6, December 1852
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
But after all these things had been parted with, how were they to live.
To live on the proceeds would be madness, as that would in a short time
exhaust every thing; they neither of them had any expectations of future
fortune, save from their own exertions. Dawson had been educated to no
business, nor any profession; and that he had escaped being a mere
profligate “about town” was regarded almost as a wonder by all. His
refined native taste had alone saved him. Mere dissipation in its
unrefined, undraperied vulgarity, had no charms for him; and he had
sought refuge when very young in female society, and the indulgence of
an unrestrained taste for general literature. He had never been a
student--rather a literary epicure--tasting a mouthful here, and sipping
a few drops there--but nowhere sitting down to that hearty meal of solid
food by which alone true students are made.
It was, however, necessary that a decision of some kind should be made.
On one thing he was resolved, and with a determination which nothing
could shake. It was to leave the place where his former life had been
passed. His pride was yet unbroken; he could not endure the thought of
sinking back from that position in society which he had formerly filled.
He could not endure the thought that his bright, his beautiful wife
should be exposed to mortifications which always fall to the lot of
those from whose side fortune has departed. He knew full well that the
before concealed envy of many would now show itself at her expense--that
she should be an object of affected pity and compassion from those who
had greeted her appearance with applause, and had been followers in her
train. Were they to seek a new home, they would be spared a thousand and
one of those petty annoyances which none but those who have experienced
them can appreciate. In a new sphere, they would start in an humble way,
but then there would be no by-gones connected with their history. Come
what else might, do what else they would, on this point he was
unalterably determined; the what that was to be done, and the where it
was to be, could not, however, be definitely determined upon until the
results of the sale were known. He inclined for the west. To this his
wife, backed by the influence of her own family, opposed a decided
negative. The iron horse did not then course its way over the lofty
mountains and through the dense forests and across the almost boundless
prairies on which it now pursues its daily career. She dreaded the
deadly sickness to which all settlers in new countries are subject--the
isolation from all society, which she knew must fall with such crushing
weight upon one so long accustomed to it as was her husband--the want of
schools, at which her young family could receive proper
instruction--and, we must confess, she shrunk somewhat from the thought
of being her own sole “help.” She did not count upon having about her,
go where she might, a train of servants, but she knew herself physically
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