Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 1, January 1842Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 1, January 1842
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
Although Jeanie was a girl of strong mind, the sacrifice which she
contemplated was not to be effected without many inward struggles. But
having made up her mind to what she considered her duty, she allowed no
personal feelings to swerve her from the strict line she had laid down
for herself wherein to walk. Daily did she seek in prayer for aid; and
never did she allow her parent to hear a murmur from her lips. Yet, let
her strive as she would, the memory of her lover would constantly recur
to her mind. At the gloamin hour, in the still watches of the night—by
the ingle-side, abroad in the fields, or in the kirk of God—on Sabbath
or week day—when listening to her aged sire’s voice, or sitting all
alone in her little chamber, the image of him she had loved would rise
up before her, diffusing a gentle melancholy over her heart, and
seeming, for the moment, to raise an impassable barrier betwixt her and
the fulfilment of her new vows—for those vows had already been taken,
and the evening which was to make her another’s, was only postponed
until the intended bridegroom—a staid farmer of the border—could make
the necessary preparations in his homestead, necessary to fit it for a
new mistress, and she the sweetest flower of the district.
We are telling no romantic tale, drawn from the extravagant fancy of a
novelist, but a sober reality. There are hundreds, all over this broad
realm, who are even now sacrificing themselves like Jeanie. Aye! in many
a lowly cottage, unrecked of and uncared for by the world, wither away
in secret sorrow, beings who, had their lot been cast in happier places,
would have been the brightest and most joyous of creatures. How many has
want driven, unwilling brides, to the nuptial altar! Who can tell the
sacrifice woman will not make to affection, although that sacrifice may
tear her heart’s fibres asunder? And thus Jeanie acted. Although she
received the attentions of her future husband with a smile, there was a
strange unnatural meaning in its cold moonlight expression. Even while
he talked to her, her thoughts would wander away, and she would only be
awakened from her reverie by some sudden ejaculation of his at
perceiving her want of attention. He knew her history, but he had been
one of her earliest lovers, and he flattered himself that she had long
since forgotten the absent; and, although at times her demeanor would,
for a moment, make him suspect the truth, yet a conviction so little in
unison with his wishes, led him instantly to discard it. And Jeanie,
meanwhile, continued struggling with her old attachment, until her
health began to give way beneath the conflict. She scarcely seemed to
decline—at least to eyes that saw her daily—but yet her neighbors
marked the change. In the beautiful words of the ballad,
“her cheek it grew pale,
And she drooped like a lily broke down by the hail.”
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