Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXI, No. 1, July 1842Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXI, No. 1, July 1842
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
At these words a sudden terror seemed to seize upon Alfred Graham. His
frame shook with suppressed emotion, his countenance became livid, and
his fine features were strangely contorted as if some sudden pang had
convulsed him. The next instant he uttered a faint cry and fell
prostrate to the ground, while his very life-blood was poured at the
foot of the altar which he had dared to touch with polluted hands.
He was borne to his home in utter insensibility. The sting of conscience
had finished the work which disease had long since begun, and the
rupture of a blood-vessel in the lungs had been the consequence of his
unnatural excitement and self-command. All that medical skill could
effect was tried, but without success, and ere the lapse of another day
it was known that Alfred Graham was sinking into the arms of death.
There was no time for repentance—no time to combat prejudices and
awaken better impulses. He lay as if in the deep torpor of
insensibility, until aroused by some cordial administered by his
physician, when his strength seemed to rally, and raising himself on his
pillow, he addressed his sister in words which fell like molten lead
upon her heart. With all the eloquence of passion he poured forth a wild
confession of his errors and his doubts, and then, in language equally
fervid but far more bitter, he reproached her—_her_ who had devoted her
whole life to his welfare—as the cause of all his guilt. He accused her
of having crushed his timid spirit by sternness and unbending rigor—of
having taught him hypocrisy by her fierce contempt for his
weaknesses—of having killed him by forcing him to a profession which he
hated and contemned.
“I am not mad, Madeline,” he exclaimed, in a hoarse voice, broken by his
difficult and long-drawn breath, “I am not mad, but so surely as I am
now stretched upon the bed of death, so surely has your ambition and
your mistaken zeal laid me here to die. I seek not to excuse myself, and
may God forgive me my many secret sins; but never, never would my soul
have been so deeply stained had it not been for your unrelenting
indignation at my boyish follies, and your determined will in the choice
of my future destiny. I forgive you, Madeline, but you will not forgive
yourself.”
The exertion of uttering these terrible words was too great, and ere the
sounds yet died upon the ear of the horror-stricken sister, the spirit
of the misguided youth had gone to its dread account.
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