Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXI, No. 6, December 1842Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXI, No. 6, December 1842
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Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
To a heart capable of self-sacrifice, there is no feeling so lonely as
that which follows exhausted power. No conviction, so keenly painful, as
a knowledge that a beloved being, who has cost us the hopes of a life in
resigning, can be happy without our aid—that we have nothing to render
up—no aim for exertion—nothing to do but sit down and gaze upon the
blank which existence has become. Her task was done. The excitement
over, and then came to the heart of Malina Gray the toil and pain of
concealed suffering; the aching restlessness which eats into the bud of
human life. Once more it was rumored that she was ill, and, but for
other and more absorbing subjects, Mrs. Gray might have been alarmed for
the safety of her child; but she was so intent on other things, that the
poor girl and her sufferings remained unheeded at home, save by the
gentle Phebe and her betrothed husband.
When Mrs. Gray invited our young minister to reside at her house, it was
probably with some vague expectation of the result which followed; and
when her consent was desired to his union with Phebe, it was given
promptly, and with evident satisfaction. But the young divine, though a
meek and true Christian, had a dignity of character and opinion which
sometimes proved at variance with the exactions of an ambitious and
arbitrary matron. She had expected that he would continue to reside in
her family, after the marriage, and looked forward to an extended
dominion in her own household, and increased influence in the church, to
be secured by this arrangement. But when he persisted in establishing an
independent home, in managing his own salary, and becoming the sole
protector of his future wife, whose state of moral servitude he could
not witness without pain, Mrs. Gray’s enthusiasm in favor of the match
gradually subsided, and when Malina insisted upon surrendering her newly
acquired property to the young couple, and giving them the parsonage for
a residence, the haughty woman became stern in her opposition, and while
she took every means to render her own house an unpleasant residence for
the parties, found some excuse to delay the wedding, from week to week,
and at last refused to sanction it, till Mr. Mosier should be regularly
installed in the pulpit, which he had now filled almost a year. Still
Mrs. Gray was not a woman to talk openly of a change in her opinions.
She was too calculating and subtle for useless words.
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