Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXX, No. 3, March 1847Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXX, No. 3, March 1847
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“You have named the most embittering reflection of all,” said Oliver,
stopping before him and speaking earnestly; “by that decision the
validity of a will is established, which deprives her of the right to
dispose of her hand. By its mandate she must resign all; and what could
I offer to compensate her for the sacrifice? The homage of my heart, and
the devotion of my life, are worthless trifles. I knew, while striving
to establish her rights, that if successful I sealed my own unhappiness,
and forever cut off all hope of calling her mine. I even debated with
myself whether I might not lose the case by mismanagement, and then win
the heart of the trusting, beautiful Clara. It was a great conflict for
a single moment, but the temptation yielded to a sense of honor and
justice. Her cause triumphed; and at least I have the melancholy
satisfaction left of knowing that I served the one I love.”
Oliver spoke with the eloquence of despair, and his friend listened,
engrossed in astonishment and admiration.
“I can appreciate the feelings which so trying a situation prompts,
but,” added he, the naturally sanguine disposition of his mind
prevailing over its first gloomy sensations, “trust to time for a happy
termination; for although your way is now overhung with clouds, as you
advance into the future, it will become brighter, and a glorious store
of happiness will be opened to your view.”
“Your words bid me hope,” answered Oliver, “but I fear while you utter
them your heart misgives you. No, no, James—I see no room for hope,
nothing to brighten my path with a solitary ray of comfort. I must try
to banish her image from my heart, and think of her only in connexion
with every thing lovely and perfect, never as my first and only love. I
can but make the effort, though I believe it will fail.”
James was sensible of all the deep despair and silently corroding
influence of “hope deferred;” its dreams and disappointments; its
moments of bright anticipation succeeded by still darker views of the
stern reality; its overwhelming anguish, and its rush of mad gayety more
dreadful than tears. He knew, too, the depth of passionate feeling of
which Oliver’s heart was capable, and shuddered as he thought that the
soul of one so generous and noble would be made the prey of that slow
and deadly poison, hopeless love. But by an effort he suppressed the
rising emotions of his breast, and continued to urge the possibility of
the future removing the obstacles which now appeared so formidable.
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