Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXI, No. 2, August 1847Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXI, No. 2, August 1847
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
Never, never shall I forget the look with which she received me. Her
color was more brilliant than I had ever seen it, but her eyes were dull
and fixed, and a ghastly smile played round her mouth, as she bade me
enter; but the expression of her forehead, if I may use such a term,
shocked me more than all else. It seemed to have grown old—twenty years
in advance of the rest of her face. It was wrinkled, and literally old,
with the agony of thought she endured.
“Ellen,” said she, in the same hollow tone with which she had addressed
me at the door, “Ellen, I have sent for you, to ask you where is now all
my boasted firmness; where my pride, my dignity? Ah, Ellen! I was never
tried before. You think me calm—despair makes me so. I did not arrive
at despair even without a hard struggle; and now, my heart, full
freighted as it was with the fondest hopes girl ever cherished, lies
crushed and dying beneath the waves of that gloom which will henceforth
be my portion in life.” She ceased, and for a moment stood silent; then
suddenly looking up, she said in a calmer voice, “I am very silly to
talk in this way to you. Do not weep, dear Ellen; you see I can bear my
sorrow without weeping. Read my answer, and tell me how you like it.”
Mechanically I took the paper she handed me. Through my tears I read the
following concise letter:—
“Miss Grahame presents her compliments to Mr. Noel, and is
extremely happy that she has it in her power to gratify him. Mr.
Noel might have spared himself any anxiety on the occasion, as,
had he known Miss Grahame better, he would have felt sure that
she would never have laid a serious claim to a midshipman’s
promise, made to a thoughtless school-girl. He will, therefore,
accept Miss Grahame’s congratulations on the prospect of
felicity before him; and believe that no better wishes will
follow him and his bride to the altar than will be offered by
her.
_“Lily Grove, June 2d._”
And this was the letter. Not one word of the breaking-heart; not a word
of the anguish that had so wrung her gentle spirit that day. Ah, Evelyn!
I did not mistake you, noble girl. I have since entertained a different
opinion of that letter. It was sent, and for a day or two Evelyn was as
cheerful, apparently, as usual; but I saw the effort with which she
concealed her grief, and anxiously watched her. Gradually, however, her
calmness left her, and she would sometimes give way to bursts of grief,
fearful to behold. This continued until she received letters from home,
urging her return, as Sarah and Arthur were soon to be married. There
was no scorn on her lips as she read Sarah’s account of her approaching
nuptials; but the words were perused again and again, and she seemed to
drink in every syllable as if it were her last draught of happiness.
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