Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXIV, No. 4, April 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXIV, No. 4, April 1849
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“Oh! how fervently should I thank Heaven who has given to me such a
monitor in the hour of temptation! Pardon me, my Alice, if by giving way
to impulse I have wounded your sensitive spirit, and that in the moment
when passion held its sway, I slighted the divine lesson of forgiveness,
through your influence first impressed upon my soul. Nay, dearest, look
not thus surprised, for it was really by your means that the wish to
quell the thirst for revenge upon my brother, entered my heart; and if
you will listen a few seconds I can explain to you the words that at
present may well seem mysterious. You will doubtless remember, Alice,
that some months before our marriage, I experienced a severe fit of
illness. One pleasant Sabbath evening shortly after I was declared
convalescent, I was reclining upon a sofa in the sitting-room at your
uncle’s residence. My spirits were just then very much depressed—I felt
inwardly fretful and uneasy—and as is not uncommon at such a time, many
little circumstances which before had been almost forgotten, rose up in
my mind, and woke anew in my bosom sensations according to their nature,
of pain, anxiety, or indignation. Among other things came forcibly to
view the memory of the grievous wrong I had received at the hands of him
who should have been a parent to me; and a feeling of the deepest hatred
toward my brother stole to my heart, together with a hope that at some
future time a chance might be mine of returning him measure for measure
of the unkindness which he had so unsparingly dealt out to me.
“At that instant, Alice, you re-entered the room from which you had been
a few minutes absent, and at the request of your uncle, opened the
family Bible and began your usual Sabbath-evening duty of reading a
series of chapters from the holy book. There was a passage in the first
which you read that affected me strangely—for it came as a reproof from
Heaven delivered to me through the medium of one of earth’s angels. It
was the following—‘Avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto
wrath, for it is written, vengeance is mine; I will repay saith the
Lord. Therefore, if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him
drink; for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head.’ The
sentences awed me, coming upon my ear as they did at a period when my
spirit needed the precious warning and rebuke contained in them, and I
breathed a silent prayer to Heaven for strength to enable me to heed it.
The hour of my trial has arrived, and to-day have I again felt the
promptings of the tempter. You cannot imagine with what force these old
feelings have been driven back upon my soul, but, Alice, your voice has
once more stilled the tempest, and I know that I have passed the ordeal
in safety.”
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