Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 2, August 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 2, August 1849
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
I was a transient dweller in a strange land—one distant from my
childhood’s home, and far away from those who knew me first and loved me
best. Gradually, as the vivid excitements of life had surrounded me, as
new ties had sprung up and old hopes faded, I had lost the intimate
knowledge of the welfare or the afflictions of many who had formerly
been familiar friends, and a lengthened separation had produced that
ignorance of the details of their destiny frequently occurring, even
where affection still lingers unaltered. But there are periods when, as
it were, remembrance irresistibly presses upon us, and we all have
seasons when old times and buried associations crowd around us with
inexplicable distinctness—when the actual loses for a while its
absorbing interest, and the past, with all its radiant dreams, its
rainbow illusions, is enchanting reality once more.
I was sitting alone, at the close of a lovely autumn afternoon, before
an open window, my fancy busy with the throng of older associations, and
inattentive to the beautiful view stretching beneath me, strikingly fair
as were its features, now glowing through the crimsoning sunlight. But
something—I know not what, for such glimpses are among the spirit’s
mysteries—had recalled other times, and my soul communed with itself
and was still. The mind has its own restless and concealed creation—its
hidden world of active silentness; and to those who have battled with
the depression attendant on human experience, there is untold luxury in
reveling amid the crowding memories that “longest haunt the heart.” Even
as I sat thus idly reflecting, a paper reached me, sent by some friendly
hand from my early home, and earnestly as I would have read a loving
letter, I pored over the contents of that every-day record. It spoke to
me as a messenger from the absent; each well-known name mentioned in its
columns, held a thousand clustering reminiscences for me; the trivial
local news was like welcome household tidings; and I spoke aloud the old
familiar names I had not heard for years, as if a spell lay in their
sound. Last of all I turned to the page where, side by side, were
chronicled marriages and deaths. The first were those of strangers;
among the last was noticed the final departure of one whom I had once
loved, as we only love in the purity of youth. The announcement was
worded in the usual form with which we herald to the careless world that
a soul has gone to the mysterious future. Nothing was there to arrest
the contemplation of the reader—to speak of inevitable human destiny to
a throbbing human heart—to reveal the agony of mortality, the
bitterness of death, or the trials of the wearily burdened and loving
ones, perchance well-nigh borne down by that one event. “Died at sea,
during her homeward voyage, Mary Vere, aged 24, for three years a
resident missionary in Persia.” And this was all! The ending of the
saddest life I ever knew, the knell of as pure a spirit as was ever
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