Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 3, September 1849 — John Shaqi
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 3, September 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 3, September 1849
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Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“And if you feel so deeply the mere temporary absence which my
profession forces on me, Theresa, how, think you, should you feel were
that absence to be eternal?”
“Eternal!” she exclaimed, turning very pale. “Eternal! What do you mean
by eternal?”
“It may well be so, Theresa; and yet it rests with yourself, after all,
whether I go or not—and yet be sure of this, if I do go, I go forever.”
“With _me_—does it rest with _me_?” she cried, joyously. “Oh! if it
rests with me, you will not go at all—you will never go any more. I am
always in terror while you are absent; and the west wind never blows,
howling as it does over these desolate bare hills, with its mournful,
moaning voice, which they say is the very sound of a spirit’s cry, but
it conjures up to my mind all dread ideas of the tremendous rush and
roar of the mountain billows upon some rock-bound leeward coast, as I
have heard you tell by the cheerful hearth; and of stranded vessels,
creaking and groaning as their huge ribs break asunder, and of corpses
weltering on the ruthless waves; oh! such dread day-dreams! If it rest
with me, go you shall not, Durzil, ever again to sea. And why should
you? You have won fame enough, and glory and wealth more than enough to
supply your wants so long as you live. Why should you go to sea again,
dear Durzil?”
“I will _not_ go again, Theresa, if such seriously be your deliberate
desire.”
“If such seriously be my deliberate desire!” the fair girl repeated the
words after him, with a sort of half solemn drollery. Was it the native
instinct of the female heart, betraying itself in that innocent and
artless creature, scarcely in years more than a child—the inborn,
irrepressible coquetry of the sex, foreseeing what was about to follow
from the young man’s lips, yet seeking all unconsciously to delay the
avowal, to protract the uncertainty, the excitement, or was it genuine,
unsuspecting innocence? “You are most singularly solemn,” she continued,
“this fine morning, Durzil, wondrously serious and deliberate; and so,
as you are so precise, I must, I suppose, answer you likewise in due set
form. Of course, it is my desire to have the company of one whom I
esteem and love, of one to whom I look up for countenance and
protection, of my only relative on earth, except my dear old father, as
much as I can have it, with due regard to his interests and well-being.
My father is getting very old, too, and infirm; and at times I fancy
that his mind wanders. I cannot fail, therefore, to perceive that he
needs a more able and energetic person near him than I am. I can,
moreover, see no good cause why you should persist in following so
perilous and stormy a profession, unless it be that you love it.
Therefore, as I have said, of _course_, if it rest with me to detain
you, I would do so—but always under this proviso, that it were with
your own good will; for I confess, dear Durzil, that I fear, if you were
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