Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 5, November 1849 — John Shaqi
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 5, November 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 5, November 1849
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and his, surely, was of the hottest. He began as of old to long for
excitement; and even the pleasures of the chase, to which he was still
devoted, began to prove insufficient to gratify his wild and eager
spirit. Day after day, Theresa saw less of him, and ere long knew not
how or where many of his days were spent. Confidence, in the true sense
of the word, there never had been between them; respect or esteem,
founded upon her real virtues and rare excellences, he had never
felt—therefore, when the heat and fierceness of passion died out, as it
were, by the consumption of its own fuel, when her personal charms
palled on him by possession, when her intellectual endowments wearied
him, because they were in truth far beyond the range of his
comprehension, and therefore out of the pale of his sympathies, he had
nothing left whereon to build affection—thus passion once dead in his
heart, all was gone at once which had bound him to Theresa.
He neglected her, he left her alone—alone, without a companion, a
friend, in the wide world. Still she complained not, wept not, above
all, upbraided not. She sought to occupy herself, to amuse her solitude
with her books, her music, her wild flights into the world of fancy. And
when he did come home from his fierce, frantic gallops across the
country with the worst and wildest of the young yeomanry, from his
disgraceful orgies with the half gentry of the nearest market-town, she
received him ever with kindness, gentleness and love.
She never let him know that she wept in silence; never allowed him to
see that she noticed his altered manner; but smiled on him, and sang to
him, and fondled him, as if he had been to her—and was he not so?—all
that she had on earth. And he, such is the spirit of the selfish and the
reckless of our sex, almost began to hate her, for the very meekness and
affection with which she submitted to his unkindness.
He felt that her unchanged, unreproaching love was the keenest reproach
to his altered manner, to his neglectful coldness. He felt that he could
better have endured the bitterest blame, the most agonized remonstrance,
the tears of the veriest Niobe, than meet the ever welcoming smile of
those rosy lips, the ever loving glance of those soft blue eyes.
Perhaps had she possessed more of what such men as he call spirit, had
the vein of her genius led to outbursts of vehement, unfeminine, Italian
passion, the flashing eye, the curling lip, the face pallid with rage,
the tongue fluent with the torrent eloquence of indignation, he might
have found in them something to rouse his dormant passions from the
lethargy which had overcome them, something to stimulate and excite him
into renewed desire.
But as well might you expect from the lily of the valley the blushes and
the thorns of the rose, from the turtle-dove the fury and the flight of
the jer-falcon, as aught from Theresa St. Aubyn, but the patience, the
purity, the quiet, and the love of a white-minded, virtuous woman.
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