Grit LawlessYoung, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Philosophy
Grit Lawless
Young, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Africa -- Fiction
Because of the intensity of their feeling and the natural reserve that
prompted them to its concealment, the meeting between husband and wife
was commonplace in the extreme. For years they had been apart, nursing
resentment one against the other. Each had failed the other in the
great essentials of married life. Both had made mistakes, and both had
been unrelenting. But death makes an extraordinary difference in human
affairs, even when it is merely the overshadowing of death's wings,
which, hovering for a while, pass on, the time being not yet fulfilled.
The fear, the almost certainty that death would claim her husband had
melted for ever the hardness in Zoe Lawless' heart. She was prepared,
had been prepared from the moment she determined to leave Cape Town in
search of him, to forgive every injury that she had suffered at his
hands,--to accept him as he was for her love's sake, unconditionally, as
he had once told her was the only way possible to complete
reconciliation. He had less to forgive; but he also had come to regard
life differently since he had stood on the borderland of the Great
Eternal,--to realise its limitations and insufficiencies, the pettiness
of ill-feeling, the seriousness of the huge human blunder that is called
unkindness. The overshadowing of death's wings had softened him, had
given him pause to think.
When the door opened in response to his querulously uttered invitation,
and Zoe entered with her flowers in her hand, he looked towards her with
a quick, sharp glance of inquiry. Behind the look was a certain fierce
shyness, a diffidence which he strove to conceal. She approached the
bed, placed the bloemetjes on the coverlet close to his hand and sat
down in the chair she had occupied on the only other occasion that she
had been permitted inside the room.
"I am so glad you are better," she said.
He removed his gaze from her face and played with the flowers.
"You've been long enough in coming to see me," he returned ungraciously.
"The doctor was afraid I might excite you," she explained.
"Rot!" he ejaculated.
He pulled the flowers about and did not look at her.
"It's been a near thing with me," he went on, "I've had a closer look at
death than I'm likely to get again, and come through... It didn't seem
to matter, somehow." He still played with the flowers. "It would have
squared things, perhaps, if I'd made you a widow."
She leant towards him, and spoke in a low voice, reproachfully.
"You know it wouldn't have squared things. It would have deprived both
of us of the chance to make amends."
"Still making a matter of conscience of it?" he said cynically.
She put her hand quickly on his, and so stayed the restless fingers in
their destructive task.
"Hugh! That isn't kind."
"No," he agreed. "But you see, it's easy for you to do the right thing
under given circumstances."
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