Grit LawlessYoung, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Philosophy
Grit Lawless
Young, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Africa -- Fiction
"Then, you would not, perhaps, describe yourself as absolutely
fearless?"
The man flushed darkly, hesitated for an instant, and then touched the
scar on his face deliberately.
"That marks a moment of absolute terror," he said quietly. "Thank God!
the fear of being a coward made me receive it in the face instead of the
back. Courage is only a matter of control. The hero differs from the
coward by the smallest accident of temperament. If self-control were
appreciated rightly and made a particular part of the education of the
race, the term coward would be seldom applied, and then only to the
person it fitted."
The Colonel leant forward suddenly, resting his arms on the table, his
glance still searching the thin, inscrutable face that puzzled and yet
attracted him.
"It is men like you we want... Why did you leave the Service?" he asked
abruptly.
His hearer stiffened visibly.
"Need we go into that?" he said.
"Not if you prefer to keep your own counsel."
There was a barely perceptible pause. The younger man broke it.
"My objection to speak has probably led you to a fairly correct
inference," he said. "I was cashiered from the Army. But for which
stroke of fortune I should not now be offering my services to you."
He lifted his glass, put it to his lips, and draining the contents, set
it down again empty.
The Colonel remained silent, regarding him with freshly awakened
distrust. By his own showing the man was an adventurer. Despite his
first prejudice in his favour he began to wonder whether after all it
were wise to place confidence in him. He knew nothing of him. There
was to his credit merely a few garnished tales of daring which, either
from modesty or a knowledge of their exaggeration, he had himself
practically disclaimed,--and to his discredit the ugly truth he had just
heard from his own lips. He sat up suddenly. In the piercing eyes that
met his own steadily he perceived the flicker of a smile.
"You haven't committed yourself, sir. There is time to draw back."
But at the half-mocking speech, the almost insolent challenge of the
tone, the doubt in the Colonel's mind suddenly vanished. What if the
man were an adventurer? Were not his services required for an
adventurous undertaking? The balance sheet of his past life was no
concern of his. He wanted courage, daring, and intelligence; he was
prepared to pay for them; and he believed that the man before him
possessed these qualifications.
"You are not the first man who has gone under who in happier
circumstances would have been a credit to the Service," he said gravely,
and having said it dismissed the subject almost it seemed with relief.
It did not do to be over particular in regard to a man's past with great
odds at stake.
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