Growing Up: A Story of the Girlhood of Judith MackenzieConklin, Nathaniel, Mrs.
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Growing Up: A Story of the Girlhood of Judith Mackenzie
Conklin, Nathaniel, Mrs.
Christian life -- Fiction; Conduct of life -- Fiction; Girls -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
At the tea-table Marion told Roger the story of how Jean had an
outing.
“I wish you might have heard the unconscious way she told it. My life
_is_ like Africa: all beaten tracks. I am to be the President of the
Outing Ten. All Bensalem is to be my own special private outing, but
nobody is to know it.”
“Then, Marion dear, you will have the two most blessed things on the
earth.”
“What are they?”
“Don’t you know?”
“You think work is one,” she said doubtfully.
“So you think. And companionship is the other.”
“Roger, dear, I’m afraid I haven’t given you companionship; I’ve been
stupid, self-absorbed, idle—”
“Anything else?”
“But you have been desolate, sometimes.”
“My work has been my companionship.”
“Then there is only one blessed thing to you,” she said, merrily.
“May you get it.”
“I am getting it every day.”
“Then you do not inwardly fret against the limitations of this bit of
a village—” she began, frightened at herself for the suggestion: “I
thought, perhaps, you were _bearing_ Bensalem.”
“So I am, I hope,” he answered, gravely, “in my heart, and in my
prayers.”
“I beg your pardon,” she returned, flushing under the “splendid
purpose in his eyes.” “I might have known you were too broad to feel
narrowed, as I do.”
“You remember what Lowell says: ‘There are few brains that would not
be better for living for a while on their own fat.’”
“And that is better than the fat of the land—which you will never get
in Bensalem.”
“I think I started from my new standpoint without worldly ambition.
Think of Paul writing the Epistle to the Romans from a literary point
of view.”
“Well, then,” with a laugh that was half a grumble, “I despair of
you, if you ‘take pleasure’ as he did in all sorts of infirmities and
limitations—I was beginning to be ambitious for you. You spent all
the afternoon last week with Agnes Trembly’s mother, reading to her,
and telling her stories—you do not take time to _study_ as you used
to study. You were such a student. Now all you care for is people—and
the Bible,” she ran on, discontentedly; “What does Don think of you?”
she asked, with a sudden flush.
“He is in despair,” he replied, thinking of Don’s latest letter of
angry expostulation.
“He is ambitious,” said Marion, reproachfully.
“So am I,” he answered, smiling at the reproach.
“But in such a way. I like ambition. I would like to do something in
the world myself.”
“The man, or woman, or child, who does the will of God is every day
doing something in the world,” he said, seriously.
For a moment she was silenced, then urged by her own discontent she
burst out:—
“But five hundred or a thousand people might as well listen to you,
and be influenced by your ‘strength and simplicity,’ as this handful
of Bensalem.”
“The perfect Teacher was more than once content with but one
listener.”
“Yes; but his sermon was written and handed down to all the ages,”
she answered, in a flash.
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